Some stupid confusions are there inside my mind since the time I m born. Infact I am a guy with lots of confusion. At the time of my birth I would bet on it that GOD must have been in confusion to create a new creature.These confusions have formed a long list now and it is slowly getting the priority over my dreams.I m not able to decide anything this time.
Ok lets start with my basic confusion.Why I am here for?? Greaat ... before starting writing anything I changed the title 7 times. It goes like this ..... A silent cry, Wounded soul, A thorn in my wounded heart , A confession of my dirty mind,Just a confusion, I lost someone ......finally again it is confusion of my stupid mind. This is a trivial confusion wheneve I try to write I change my title many times.
Yeah its was quite clear a while back tht I was gonna write abt some stupid girl whom I lost because of a stupid reason.Well it's useless to mention her cuz I dont think she will ever understand it. But she still doesnt know tht this idiot can wait forever.Neway this looks like as if I m frustrate but no really I m not.I am quite in my sense and had really a good discussion with someone very good advisor.So definitely I m not gonna talk abt that stupid girl here.
I have quite a few reason to come back n fill this blog with some new petals of words.
First title was A silent cry that means really today I cried for a while and even I dont know why was it for .......but I did. Wounded soul ...... about this the same reason I am still hurt my dear.U dont have any right to intrude into my emotions.
Well 4th one is really interesting The confession of a Dirty mind.... Dirty mind bole to ....sometimes I do things crazy.So I was abt to confess publically without thinking but I didnt.
Anyway there is no point for me to go into those stupid details.Lets cometo the main idea tht I started it.I have a confusion that I am still not able to remove. Hey dont think tht I have fallen in love with any stupids I never had confusion in this regards :) :) ...... yeah that is other thing tht I alawys have a confusion that if a girl has fallen in love with me or not??... hehhehhehhee ... This is the real confusion. Well srry guys n excuse me gals....confusion is abt my life.
Wht I want from my stupid LIFE..... tht is the confusion.I dont know wht do I like most..... a girl , a nice carreer, millions of money, a mercedes benz, or my satisfaction of wht I am ....I think I am good for nothing.This life has become hell for me.Going movie even in weekdays doesnt bring any happiness for me permanently. I am in research team here but didnt like much now moved to development side to learn new thing but still I m not satisfied.I dont have a girl friend even there I am out of luck :P :P so unluckky naaa.
Arey yaar my real confusion is what to do next????? Should I prepare for biggies like M$,Google,Amazon,Yahoo..... or should I go for cracking for name sake that I am least motivated... or should I go for writing my GRE n applying for MS (I know I wont get it) ... or wasting my time with my stupids online. Confusion creats confusion and thts for sure.I am not even sure wht would be happening with me in 4-5 months from now.I m definitely gonna mad.
Chalo bahut confusion ho gaya.thoda time pass to kar hi leta hun. Dekho yaar duniya mein jo ho raha hai hone do. Koi tumhara nahi hai tum kisi ke nahi ho.Fir tum rote kyon ho? Tumne kya laaya tha jo tumne kho diya .....
No more senti because senti makes a man stupid and idiot like I was for sometime.Idiots can make ur life hell and I had already an experience.Koi baat nahi tension nahi lena kaa mast rahne kaa life mein senti nahi hone kaa.
Bye Vinod
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Deep down my heart ....
Deep down my heart there is something that is still hidden that has made its permanent place there without giving any rent..One day a tear dropped down my eye and I asked why it came..it says "I have no place inside you". Tht's how I am.I do not let tears to come reside in my eyes.After a long time I thought of continuing to pen up for my online diary. Many a few incidents happen to take place during last few days tht are worth writing here but I can't give hand to those moments for the time being.
I never need anyone in my life (except very very few).Dont even care for anyone who doesnt care for me.Even sometimes I think do I really take life seriously....NEver I guess. I met lots of new ppl here and the best part is that they all are the birds of a feather flock together. None is of my type .... who doesnt care for the world but they do.I almost forgot my past n even I m trying hard to forget it as soon as possible because there is nothing for me in the past where I lost almost everything for silly reasons. It is not the end of life if u dont get something in the way might be u can get something better thn it if u continue.....LIFE MEANS MOVE ON AND ON.
Bangalore a most happening place in india who is slowly making me insane n addicted to be part of it.A place where I am really happy without a reason. So many things are against me but still they are lesser thn my happiness n satisfaction.First thing I dont see someone here whom I can't even seee in my dream.I dont have to change my route for anyone. I dont have to miss my office 4 someone. I dont have to be senti for someone. I dont have to fight with soemoene.I dont have to take other words to my heart tht they really dont mean.I really dont want to get myself involved with someone here whom I Can't leave in 10 minutes.Yes I can leave anyone in my life who is not of my type and evn I do expect the same from the other end.Why to say YES if you have to say NO.
Perfect match U will never find.At one or the other point of time u will have to compromise it but I dont think I would ever compromise with anyone.I'm the best according to me and the person has be like me who can realise tht I am the best.Then only this two way crawler life will search like a google search engine with mozilla.
Somebody asks my salary..somebody asks if I am married.. somebody asks my height.. somebody asks if I am virgin.. somebody asks me if I have a GF.. somebody asks something nonsense. If they think this is the right parameter to judge a person let them do so I hardly care.I have my own life I can even talk to myself I Can even even stay alone for rest of my life.Do I really need anyone in my life?
I dont take life seriously and it is a fact.Recently I found it is a fun for me but might be for others it is not.Here I was wrong .I'm always free if u ask me to come at ne time if I say ne time then I mean it...I would come but 4 others it is not so.They might have some other commitment in life n no1 has right to question abt the integrity. Though I'm fed up with these online ppl but u know one thing they are in a way better than ur real ppl atleast even if they hurt u U wont get hurted and one thing abt them is like at any point of time we can stop without disturbance.We expect something more.Perhaps our expectations are unmet? The expectations that we are better off not having in the first place.
Then again, why would that necessarily be a criteria, if we were able to converse freely with people without the same mindset, even as soon as we meet them?
Neway there are lots for me to write but time wont stop for me. N it doesnt permit me to write more cuz this is the time for me to work now.But deeeeeeeeeep down my heart I have still many thoughts which are craving for words to come out.....
VInod
I never need anyone in my life (except very very few).Dont even care for anyone who doesnt care for me.Even sometimes I think do I really take life seriously....NEver I guess. I met lots of new ppl here and the best part is that they all are the birds of a feather flock together. None is of my type .... who doesnt care for the world but they do.I almost forgot my past n even I m trying hard to forget it as soon as possible because there is nothing for me in the past where I lost almost everything for silly reasons. It is not the end of life if u dont get something in the way might be u can get something better thn it if u continue.....LIFE MEANS MOVE ON AND ON.
Bangalore a most happening place in india who is slowly making me insane n addicted to be part of it.A place where I am really happy without a reason. So many things are against me but still they are lesser thn my happiness n satisfaction.First thing I dont see someone here whom I can't even seee in my dream.I dont have to change my route for anyone. I dont have to miss my office 4 someone. I dont have to be senti for someone. I dont have to fight with soemoene.I dont have to take other words to my heart tht they really dont mean.I really dont want to get myself involved with someone here whom I Can't leave in 10 minutes.Yes I can leave anyone in my life who is not of my type and evn I do expect the same from the other end.Why to say YES if you have to say NO.
Perfect match U will never find.At one or the other point of time u will have to compromise it but I dont think I would ever compromise with anyone.I'm the best according to me and the person has be like me who can realise tht I am the best.Then only this two way crawler life will search like a google search engine with mozilla.
Somebody asks my salary..somebody asks if I am married.. somebody asks my height.. somebody asks if I am virgin.. somebody asks me if I have a GF.. somebody asks something nonsense. If they think this is the right parameter to judge a person let them do so I hardly care.I have my own life I can even talk to myself I Can even even stay alone for rest of my life.Do I really need anyone in my life?
I dont take life seriously and it is a fact.Recently I found it is a fun for me but might be for others it is not.Here I was wrong .I'm always free if u ask me to come at ne time if I say ne time then I mean it...I would come but 4 others it is not so.They might have some other commitment in life n no1 has right to question abt the integrity. Though I'm fed up with these online ppl but u know one thing they are in a way better than ur real ppl atleast even if they hurt u U wont get hurted and one thing abt them is like at any point of time we can stop without disturbance.We expect something more.Perhaps our expectations are unmet? The expectations that we are better off not having in the first place.
Then again, why would that necessarily be a criteria, if we were able to converse freely with people without the same mindset, even as soon as we meet them?
Neway there are lots for me to write but time wont stop for me. N it doesnt permit me to write more cuz this is the time for me to work now.But deeeeeeeeeep down my heart I have still many thoughts which are craving for words to come out.....
VInod
Friday, September 30, 2005
Atlast I finished my work
I've seen moments in life where you dont have any choice and this was the time when I had been asked to finish the work within a specified time limit. Earlier I was doing just BC and hardly gave the value of work until I got pressure from my PM after all he too expects something from me.Since last 5 days I was just stuck up with one point where my condition was just like snake and mole.If snake gulps the mole he will die or if he throws it away he will turn blind (just heard not sure :P).I was told to leave this work and start a new one without finishing it if I couldnt do it by friday ie by today.
I suddenly got the idea at around 3'O clock in the evening and then I thought It will surely work and it did work with small errors but that is insignificant.I relaxed for 1 hour and then did some BC. At around 7:00 pm I came to office cabin and since then I started working like a hell.I took break for few minutes two times and finally at around 4:00 in the morning I am able to do atleast some work that could be shown tomorrow.Let's see if he gets impressed with me.I had to study a lot but couldnt do so cuz it took more time than I had expected.
Today was a great day for me as everything was going simply gr8. Talked with many ppl and really enjoyed today though enjoyment was encircled within myself. This moment of time also I am feeling relaxed :).No updates from myside because everything is same for me just time passed. It was just another day for me but with little difference. It was really a great learning experience when u have a deadline and it is not like our college deadlines that is often being changed or postponed but here at company U have to do it by any how.well now feeling sleepy.
A**** u always say gud morning gud evening n gud night but y didnt u come online since last 3 days. DD how r u doing ? This time I thought I would talk to u for a while but u r not online :(. DS I didnt get the reply yet ?? RS aap kahan ho?didnt see u since long time.JG I think u r quite busy these days. Chalo catch u all tomorrow.Bye vinod
I suddenly got the idea at around 3'O clock in the evening and then I thought It will surely work and it did work with small errors but that is insignificant.I relaxed for 1 hour and then did some BC. At around 7:00 pm I came to office cabin and since then I started working like a hell.I took break for few minutes two times and finally at around 4:00 in the morning I am able to do atleast some work that could be shown tomorrow.Let's see if he gets impressed with me.I had to study a lot but couldnt do so cuz it took more time than I had expected.
Today was a great day for me as everything was going simply gr8. Talked with many ppl and really enjoyed today though enjoyment was encircled within myself. This moment of time also I am feeling relaxed :).No updates from myside because everything is same for me just time passed. It was just another day for me but with little difference. It was really a great learning experience when u have a deadline and it is not like our college deadlines that is often being changed or postponed but here at company U have to do it by any how.well now feeling sleepy.
A**** u always say gud morning gud evening n gud night but y didnt u come online since last 3 days. DD how r u doing ? This time I thought I would talk to u for a while but u r not online :(. DS I didnt get the reply yet ?? RS aap kahan ho?didnt see u since long time.JG I think u r quite busy these days. Chalo catch u all tomorrow.Bye vinod
Monday, September 19, 2005
Best Interview of my life
It was just dinner time and I had my dinner @ 8:00 and after roaming for some time ........ a snail was putting himself inside a shell wher he couldnt manage to see or infact he didnt want to see neone.It was still 10:00 AM when the hour hand of the standalone wall clock is struggling to creep forward.It showed me 2 hours to go for 12:00 and this small snell was still in the shell keeping himself invisible from outer world.Only one light was on in the big hall and someone without music managed to stick at one place. Yeah this snail was me.I spent whole night without any break preparing for most awaited interview.
Well I knew in advance this is gonna be the toughest one for me as this time only IITians and NITians were shortlisted in the written test. I was even ready to face this hurdle and infact prepared well to do atleast better there and to put some good show there.Till the morning when sun has even had finished his sleep and was waiting out to show me the beauty of day.Birds were chirping was not a new things I often hear them doing so.It was now around 6:15 when I decide I should take some break and I did then after having small nap of around 1 and half hour I got up with fuss as it was already 8:00.It was long way to go for interview becas it was too far from here I have already experienced it and I missed the motorola test at the very same place.So the same situation came in front of me.
Anyway it was in my sub conscious mind tht the company Im gonna for the interview is one of the best and they r so friendly that they understand the problems.so Iwas sure I would be having my interview even if I get little late. Infact I was late ther again by half an hour and my wait has got the break when he called me.I was a bit nervous before the interview but after 1-2 mins I controlled and everything was fine.It reminded me the days of my ISI interview when I was given a board and pen to explain and solve the problem on the board though here this was my choice so I asked for the board and pen.Interview was on and on and it was to my surprise I was really doing well there and I answered almost all the questions with little bit errors but it was quite goood. The second person started asking me about all the maths problems and asked me to solve but hopefully i conviced him by solving almost all except one or two.He then asked me simple puzzles that I solved but in other one I got struck up in the last stage.Neway it was really an intereting experience for me.
Then the real trouble came when I faced the third person.she began with some OS concepts that was fine.THen slowly slowly she went inside the internals and all.I tried to solve all the questions but it was beyond my limit as I was not much comfortable with that very topic IPC programming :(.But they were more than friendly and I liked their attitudes they were always helping me at every stage and it was like talking with someone with no fear and no tension.I didnt get it that I know but I enjoyed a lot and this is the first interview which went for 3 and half hours at a streatch without any break and I really liked it a lot.May be this is the begining for me but I m sure if I keep on studying like this the world is not far from me.I can catch the world and would see this beautiful rainbow of life.Well I wish myself best of luck for others if any I get chance.I have now no chance with me for the time being.
chalo still feeling hungry:(
bye
Well I knew in advance this is gonna be the toughest one for me as this time only IITians and NITians were shortlisted in the written test. I was even ready to face this hurdle and infact prepared well to do atleast better there and to put some good show there.Till the morning when sun has even had finished his sleep and was waiting out to show me the beauty of day.Birds were chirping was not a new things I often hear them doing so.It was now around 6:15 when I decide I should take some break and I did then after having small nap of around 1 and half hour I got up with fuss as it was already 8:00.It was long way to go for interview becas it was too far from here I have already experienced it and I missed the motorola test at the very same place.So the same situation came in front of me.
Anyway it was in my sub conscious mind tht the company Im gonna for the interview is one of the best and they r so friendly that they understand the problems.so Iwas sure I would be having my interview even if I get little late. Infact I was late ther again by half an hour and my wait has got the break when he called me.I was a bit nervous before the interview but after 1-2 mins I controlled and everything was fine.It reminded me the days of my ISI interview when I was given a board and pen to explain and solve the problem on the board though here this was my choice so I asked for the board and pen.Interview was on and on and it was to my surprise I was really doing well there and I answered almost all the questions with little bit errors but it was quite goood. The second person started asking me about all the maths problems and asked me to solve but hopefully i conviced him by solving almost all except one or two.He then asked me simple puzzles that I solved but in other one I got struck up in the last stage.Neway it was really an intereting experience for me.
Then the real trouble came when I faced the third person.she began with some OS concepts that was fine.THen slowly slowly she went inside the internals and all.I tried to solve all the questions but it was beyond my limit as I was not much comfortable with that very topic IPC programming :(.But they were more than friendly and I liked their attitudes they were always helping me at every stage and it was like talking with someone with no fear and no tension.I didnt get it that I know but I enjoyed a lot and this is the first interview which went for 3 and half hours at a streatch without any break and I really liked it a lot.May be this is the begining for me but I m sure if I keep on studying like this the world is not far from me.I can catch the world and would see this beautiful rainbow of life.Well I wish myself best of luck for others if any I get chance.I have now no chance with me for the time being.
chalo still feeling hungry:(
bye
Friday, September 16, 2005
Life is a crap
Soooooooo crap u cant imagine wht is there in its hand . A moment back u feel u have got everything the very next moment u will realise that there was nothing at all................ so life is a crap. Mine routine got a shift n now I'm virtually working in night shift.I used to sleep during my office hour n do my work only during night.well I guess my PM is not at all worried abt this but he is just ok if I'm working my part. Today itself I missed two calls n couldnt call back her cuz I m out of money n really cant afford to make any calls and tht also std ones.
My day now starts at 1 PM almost everyday.After getting myself refreshed the clock short hand could creep to make 30 degree by that time.By the time I reached to office only just two hours are left and I could hardly find anything to do at that time beside chatting or brwosing the internet.I just pass my day doing these things and not actually putting my efforts in right direction.Only night with the mooon I have something mine... I can't just afford to miss the great scenery of meeting of lovely moon with lots of twinkling stars. So verbally I would admit my day start only in night .Wild dreams and unfulfilled desires always knock my brain to come out of the shells.I hardly manage to give them a right plateform to execute their programs because most of the time my CPU is busy with craps.Even I cant give my dream user an illusion of virtual memory cuz memory utilisation has already passed its limit.
Some c fundae instantly blow out of my so called brainny head.Dont find time to get into it with lots of thinking.arey yaaar wht the hell I'm writing it.
Yaaar sometimes I think ....... why these words are still soem scambled and jumbled words that I m still unable to give them a right sentence to speak its meaning.Its me thats why.I'm not a stupid I guess but during my hard times of bankrupt I'm still wasting money like helllll god knows wht will happen to me if I couldnt get the salary for this month tooo.Now worried at my part but thinking of others whom I've to return.well I started trying to improve my so called HINGLISH lets see who are with me to give me better support.hopefully some of my strangers r really helpful n caring they do help me but as I mentioned earlier I'm not a good decision taker so didnt make up my mind. Neway in a sentence if somebody asks me what is life for me .......... then I would promptly say LIFE IS A CRAP FOR ME.
DD how r u doing ??I think u got some ideas right??:P hunt still on:O .Archue wht was the message u sent didnt understand yaaar.Giving u missed call @3 means I'm still ther.My dear unknown inspiration I know u r busy with ur exams but still u could steal some moments to get back to ur unknown friends neway all the best to u. Welllll I can understand u DS sometimes it does happen with me when someone calls me I'm busy n tired.S ...u shouldnt think much abt nething....arey yaaar if ther is no yahooo u can have gooooogle n msn ther:) dont worry.4 some1 I care ........ its really becoming hard to forget u as I try more to forget more I remember u.I can replace ur s** with many but unfortunately I cant replace u with ne1.Do better next time and all the best.
chalo I'm not finding the words to write here...........
gud bbuy
vinod
My day now starts at 1 PM almost everyday.After getting myself refreshed the clock short hand could creep to make 30 degree by that time.By the time I reached to office only just two hours are left and I could hardly find anything to do at that time beside chatting or brwosing the internet.I just pass my day doing these things and not actually putting my efforts in right direction.Only night with the mooon I have something mine... I can't just afford to miss the great scenery of meeting of lovely moon with lots of twinkling stars. So verbally I would admit my day start only in night .Wild dreams and unfulfilled desires always knock my brain to come out of the shells.I hardly manage to give them a right plateform to execute their programs because most of the time my CPU is busy with craps.Even I cant give my dream user an illusion of virtual memory cuz memory utilisation has already passed its limit.
Some c fundae instantly blow out of my so called brainny head.Dont find time to get into it with lots of thinking.arey yaaar wht the hell I'm writing it.
Yaaar sometimes I think ....... why these words are still soem scambled and jumbled words that I m still unable to give them a right sentence to speak its meaning.Its me thats why.I'm not a stupid I guess but during my hard times of bankrupt I'm still wasting money like helllll god knows wht will happen to me if I couldnt get the salary for this month tooo.Now worried at my part but thinking of others whom I've to return.well I started trying to improve my so called HINGLISH lets see who are with me to give me better support.hopefully some of my strangers r really helpful n caring they do help me but as I mentioned earlier I'm not a good decision taker so didnt make up my mind. Neway in a sentence if somebody asks me what is life for me .......... then I would promptly say LIFE IS A CRAP FOR ME.
DD how r u doing ??I think u got some ideas right??:P hunt still on:O .Archue wht was the message u sent didnt understand yaaar.Giving u missed call @3 means I'm still ther.My dear unknown inspiration I know u r busy with ur exams but still u could steal some moments to get back to ur unknown friends neway all the best to u. Welllll I can understand u DS sometimes it does happen with me when someone calls me I'm busy n tired.S ...u shouldnt think much abt nething....arey yaaar if ther is no yahooo u can have gooooogle n msn ther:) dont worry.4 some1 I care ........ its really becoming hard to forget u as I try more to forget more I remember u.I can replace ur s** with many but unfortunately I cant replace u with ne1.Do better next time and all the best.
chalo I'm not finding the words to write here...........
gud bbuy
vinod
Saturday, September 10, 2005
My Hinglish...
Whenever and whereevr I take a small trip in this globe I realise my HINGLISH is #@!!#@& (hope u understand it).Let it be an interview especially HR interviews I m badly kicked off cuz of my long live hinglish. It doesnt get reflected from my writing but surely I can see my voice coming out in mirror with lots of bugs in a single sentence.Yaar I dont understand it why it happens but it does happen everytime.I talk with many ppl even some of the strangers too but y dont they help me with my poor english tht I have developped a notion abt it tht it can't be reformed now.Hereby I request some of my strangers who r reading my blogs to kindly talk to me in ENGLISH not in HINGLISH n let me provide with the grace of learning this british accent.I've always been in a category of desiring who do deserve but never try.Hail to this group ... now I could lionize myself by leaving this #$%@#$ community gonna practice english.
Well a&%$#@ amal gave me hard times called me for treat and take from me itself :( :( I'm not gonna leave him for sure.Two days back it was girish b'day could came to know late night only n hardly we could manage to arrange nething.neway it went well ending up with less fuss no bumbs neway.I've still 15 days to improve my accent I got a grace period to get it refined otherwise they will again $#%@^%$ me.Archu back now had some problem with internet.I stopped talking to some1 whom I used to disturbed a lot thinking to give her some space. Have got a new $#@%$ but not scared to lose cuz I've nothing to lose now :) so I'm standing on the safer side.Been to the forum 3 days this weeeks enjoyed a lot caught up with old school friend.planning to go today somewhere with my roommate. hey I'm still looking for someone who could help me in improving my english so ne gr8 soul can take initiative to help this poor soul otherwise this poor soul wont find peace newhere.
It's 6 am in the morning didnt feel like sleeping so came to office for doing BC.Not much for my updates today hopefully I come up with some more updates.Unknown stranger if u r reading then think abt me for a moment ........... when ther is something to share CHATTING is not an option.guess by this time u might have understood the reason being so friendly with u."U might 've wonderful eyes but I'm not good at telling lies".rest is fine only. No salary yet still can manage to survive here for quite sometime.My hobby changed into thinking n thinking but which direction I dont know.
Bbuy Vinod
Well a&%$#@ amal gave me hard times called me for treat and take from me itself :( :( I'm not gonna leave him for sure.Two days back it was girish b'day could came to know late night only n hardly we could manage to arrange nething.neway it went well ending up with less fuss no bumbs neway.I've still 15 days to improve my accent I got a grace period to get it refined otherwise they will again $#%@^%$ me.Archu back now had some problem with internet.I stopped talking to some1 whom I used to disturbed a lot thinking to give her some space. Have got a new $#@%$ but not scared to lose cuz I've nothing to lose now :) so I'm standing on the safer side.Been to the forum 3 days this weeeks enjoyed a lot caught up with old school friend.planning to go today somewhere with my roommate. hey I'm still looking for someone who could help me in improving my english so ne gr8 soul can take initiative to help this poor soul otherwise this poor soul wont find peace newhere.
It's 6 am in the morning didnt feel like sleeping so came to office for doing BC.Not much for my updates today hopefully I come up with some more updates.Unknown stranger if u r reading then think abt me for a moment ........... when ther is something to share CHATTING is not an option.guess by this time u might have understood the reason being so friendly with u."U might 've wonderful eyes but I'm not good at telling lies".rest is fine only. No salary yet still can manage to survive here for quite sometime.My hobby changed into thinking n thinking but which direction I dont know.
Bbuy Vinod
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
You r here ...
Of course silence sometimes have loudest voice.It doesnt need words from mouth to come out.It rather gets its voice from your heart and speak with eyes.I've this silence within me for long time tht is still fighting with tears for who will come out first. Sania's defeat by Sarapova is different than India's defeat by Kenya (not recently). The same situation have arrived with me.
Forget it ......... why to penitence the old story if you always have new to go with it.Let's mark the begining of new untold story.Yaar this online life is really very very gr8 I met someone online just a replica of me even I couldnt beleive it.Everything happens for a good reason I dont disagree with this petal of life. I've no compunction now with myself not getting wht I wanted cuz there r still some amiable person on this earth becas of whom this earth has become a living place.
Just talked for two hours brought a great sense of attatchment cuz both r same in one or other other sense.Let u know if nething more happens. going back for my updates... was not feeling well called up my PL and asked for leave today.Last night didnt sleep was chatting for most of the time n did some work so couldnt sleep tht resulted me misery n tiredness.Still not feeling so well but tried to do something today. Someone after a long time sent a mesg tht I really wanted to forget but again transient caprice bileaf struck my brain wire. Suddenly she got back to me tht I tried to forget for long time .... yaar why I'm so unlucky when I have it I never cared now I dont want again it bothers me.chalo see kya hota hai but let me go my own way.One more thing SETLabs@Infosys has become a burden for me now....so overt solution is to get rid of it.After a renaile try cudn't find any option yet still looking for a change.
Hey if u r reading it then I'm sure I will come online on saturday to chat when u dont have any work to do.Hopefully u shouldnt have any qualms regarding it.chalo raaat kaphi ho gayi hai sonaa bhi hai. well archu .... I wish nothing wrong happened with u but u dint tell me wher wer u for last two days .... missing u re :P :P :P (kidding)
Buy gud nite.Vinod
Forget it ......... why to penitence the old story if you always have new to go with it.Let's mark the begining of new untold story.Yaar this online life is really very very gr8 I met someone online just a replica of me even I couldnt beleive it.Everything happens for a good reason I dont disagree with this petal of life. I've no compunction now with myself not getting wht I wanted cuz there r still some amiable person on this earth becas of whom this earth has become a living place.
Just talked for two hours brought a great sense of attatchment cuz both r same in one or other other sense.Let u know if nething more happens. going back for my updates... was not feeling well called up my PL and asked for leave today.Last night didnt sleep was chatting for most of the time n did some work so couldnt sleep tht resulted me misery n tiredness.Still not feeling so well but tried to do something today. Someone after a long time sent a mesg tht I really wanted to forget but again transient caprice bileaf struck my brain wire. Suddenly she got back to me tht I tried to forget for long time .... yaar why I'm so unlucky when I have it I never cared now I dont want again it bothers me.chalo see kya hota hai but let me go my own way.One more thing SETLabs@Infosys has become a burden for me now....so overt solution is to get rid of it.After a renaile try cudn't find any option yet still looking for a change.
Hey if u r reading it then I'm sure I will come online on saturday to chat when u dont have any work to do.Hopefully u shouldnt have any qualms regarding it.chalo raaat kaphi ho gayi hai sonaa bhi hai. well archu .... I wish nothing wrong happened with u but u dint tell me wher wer u for last two days .... missing u re :P :P :P (kidding)
Buy gud nite.Vinod
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Talk with a stranger
In the late hour of this wonderful night while I was orkutting (this word deserves to be in oxford dictionary) my sixth sense buzzed my emty head. I did see an invisible person trust me.(and btw how did u cum to know tht i m online at this time............wen i m in invisible mode?).I said Hi without thinking of ne reply but u wont beleive a person getting a rank of ** is so dessent enough to reply back.I had always a dream for getting a rank within 100 in JEE but unfortunately this world is full of better ppl than me.For them grapes r not sour.Since last four years I've talked with thousands of strangers infact I still talk with them.It's not a big deal but this 1001th stranger :D is something different.
I always had a gr8 respect 4 intelligent n deserving ppl especially girls who do better than boy like me ofcourse.They get special attention in my brain infact they 've created some virtual memory inside this small brain chip (thts the reason why everytime my void pointer points to special data type).Well tht person is highly ambitious I can bet it (it's not a big deal.........thr r ** ppl ahead of me ).One more thing I wud like to mention here tht unknown stranger is a good and frank human being atleast these words reflect it.( if tht had been the case thn i wud not have replied u).This is wht I think well this is my thinking n thinking can be wrong but I wud really appreciate if I'm 100% right this time.It's all abt tht stranger lets see if I'm ever fortunate enough to catch agin.
Updates for today :
never make STD calls to unknown it could cost u to end up with 0 paisa balance in ur mobile.
dont talk much on phone person might nt be listening to u.
never talk to same ppl again n again they get bored.
never make some1 ur priority when u r just an option for them.
yaar today all these above things happened in different ways and most interesting thing happened with me is tht I talked for 5 hours today on phone .......... dont know with whom hehehhehe. No balance in mobile so had to settle down with local calls now :(.Played TT while amal called me but still I defeated tht person 4 times continuously :)).Tried to learn pool but no success.wht else ??Today I got enough inspiration from sm1 but I'm not a good decision taker.well it's getting late........ so bye n happy dreaming.
VInod
I always had a gr8 respect 4 intelligent n deserving ppl especially girls who do better than boy like me ofcourse.They get special attention in my brain infact they 've created some virtual memory inside this small brain chip (thts the reason why everytime my void pointer points to special data type).Well tht person is highly ambitious I can bet it (it's not a big deal.........thr r ** ppl ahead of me ).One more thing I wud like to mention here tht unknown stranger is a good and frank human being atleast these words reflect it.( if tht had been the case thn i wud not have replied u).This is wht I think well this is my thinking n thinking can be wrong but I wud really appreciate if I'm 100% right this time.It's all abt tht stranger lets see if I'm ever fortunate enough to catch agin.
Updates for today :
never make STD calls to unknown it could cost u to end up with 0 paisa balance in ur mobile.
dont talk much on phone person might nt be listening to u.
never talk to same ppl again n again they get bored.
never make some1 ur priority when u r just an option for them.
yaar today all these above things happened in different ways and most interesting thing happened with me is tht I talked for 5 hours today on phone .......... dont know with whom hehehhehe. No balance in mobile so had to settle down with local calls now :(.Played TT while amal called me but still I defeated tht person 4 times continuously :)).Tried to learn pool but no success.wht else ??Today I got enough inspiration from sm1 but I'm not a good decision taker.well it's getting late........ so bye n happy dreaming.
VInod
Sunday, August 21, 2005
Convocation
It was not at all a happy ending for me , dont know abt others but for me it was just a waste of my time.I dont regret on wasting time in writing my blog or chatting or even reading other blogs but really I really regreted after going back to college. Hope I wont ever go back to the same place. We reached the college at around 11:30 (+ , - half hour) but the world was changed for me. Expected something else once again forgot my own words "dont expect anything". Well I got really bored over there and wanted to return tht day itself.But night was really gr8 for me as I was out of the campus for whole night.
I landed up in Niraj room (A person whom I admire as somene who is close to me).There was no problem for me to stay there but I wanted to stay with my classmates tht didnt happen. Google was on leave and sachin wasnt present there in the morning n also arjun's father has come. Neway it did bother me.Out of nine ppl with whom I used to be .. only four were present n then I realised time has changed everyone. I guess it must have changed me too but I believe it went into right direction.These two days were horrible for me to spend there even I tried in the evening to go before convocation but here I was unlucky and couldnt get my ticket booked.I'm very happy in my own world and really hate someone to intrude into my privacy n world.World will look the same as you want to see it.
Is it my bad time or is it my ugliest days of my life or is it because my distorted luck? someday I could find the answers.I've never dreamt of facing the nightmare but I did.whole day I cursed my presence over thr.I pray from god tht never let me taste these moments again in my life.Wearing gown and taking degree doesnt impress much but I wanted to be thrilled to see some of my batchmates.Unfortunately it didnt happen.Online life is better than real life for me.I am very happy to live a life with my virtual dream , sitting beside this idiotic machine doing some stupid things.I wish I would nver come out of my this world becas atleast here I dont see myself hurted with bloodless spots.
At the end I wud just say these words ... convocation day was a horrible experience for me as I was forced to do wht I cant even dream of.I'm now at the mountain of happiness as I'm in banglore with my dream with my thoughts with my virtual poetic life.Yeah of course I went ther to meet some1 special tht has been lost last month.Well I know I can forgive me enemies but I never forgive my friends n this bloody ego n stupid nature of mine again led me to lose some1 and I cudnt even call tht some1.Neway this time if I go back to hyd I will make sure tht I dont go to my college ever and I wont have to face the nightmare again but definitely hoping to see my some1 once atleast.yeah I got some work today.so good night.
I landed up in Niraj room (A person whom I admire as somene who is close to me).There was no problem for me to stay there but I wanted to stay with my classmates tht didnt happen. Google was on leave and sachin wasnt present there in the morning n also arjun's father has come. Neway it did bother me.Out of nine ppl with whom I used to be .. only four were present n then I realised time has changed everyone. I guess it must have changed me too but I believe it went into right direction.These two days were horrible for me to spend there even I tried in the evening to go before convocation but here I was unlucky and couldnt get my ticket booked.I'm very happy in my own world and really hate someone to intrude into my privacy n world.World will look the same as you want to see it.
Is it my bad time or is it my ugliest days of my life or is it because my distorted luck? someday I could find the answers.I've never dreamt of facing the nightmare but I did.whole day I cursed my presence over thr.I pray from god tht never let me taste these moments again in my life.Wearing gown and taking degree doesnt impress much but I wanted to be thrilled to see some of my batchmates.Unfortunately it didnt happen.Online life is better than real life for me.I am very happy to live a life with my virtual dream , sitting beside this idiotic machine doing some stupid things.I wish I would nver come out of my this world becas atleast here I dont see myself hurted with bloodless spots.
At the end I wud just say these words ... convocation day was a horrible experience for me as I was forced to do wht I cant even dream of.I'm now at the mountain of happiness as I'm in banglore with my dream with my thoughts with my virtual poetic life.Yeah of course I went ther to meet some1 special tht has been lost last month.Well I know I can forgive me enemies but I never forgive my friends n this bloody ego n stupid nature of mine again led me to lose some1 and I cudnt even call tht some1.Neway this time if I go back to hyd I will make sure tht I dont go to my college ever and I wont have to face the nightmare again but definitely hoping to see my some1 once atleast.yeah I got some work today.so good night.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Inspiration
Last night somebody called me and it was really interesting and really comfortable to talk with him as he is one of the few seniors whom I respect from heart.He made me realise tht I really have some problem with me and I can do anything if I want and work hard.After talking to him I got enough confidence for work and now I think I can do better. This was one of the very few lucky days where I get a happiness around me. Since morning I had some work and was actually not feeling well to do tht so I slept and when I got up it was too late so I decided to work for sometime and I did actually. I culdnt finish the work but I am satisfied tht atleast I hve tried and would be doing so whenever I m free.
"Wise men write blog because they have something to write but Fools write because they have to write something". I dont know in which category do I fall. Everything happens for a good cause perhaps my failure would bring more success some day. this makes me stronger everyday and I feel a confidence inside me these days becas I am getting failed and I could discover the exact reason of my being failure. I hope one day I could eliminate it. Some of the words were so inspiring for me tht it has kept a permanent place in my heart and I could listen the words again and again whenever I feel like listening it.
I have many things in heart and guess if the right moment comes I will be able to give them words. They need words to come out from my heart there is no other way by which I can let them come out of it. yeah a great thing happen with me When I was feeling as if I am a successful man or might be it was just a feelings for me then I found many around me but now I find they are still around me but they are now changed well it happens "success has got many parents and failure is an orphan". Though I am very poor in taking decisions but yet I have taken one. Let them others think tht u r a full .. let others think u r mad .. let others think whtever they want to think. Just be wht u r and dont give them right to decide wht u r and who u r . You r completely a unique identity with lots of hidden features with u and might be others are very special too but the best person is me.
After reading blogs of some unknown person (a girl from IIT D).I have got inner strenght.She mentioned the only person she has given importance in her life is her dad her mom her brother and herself. For me too Its the same case and I think I m no longer different than her in this respect. I love myself thts wht I mean.I dont care about others but I do care abt who I am and wht I can be.Yeah friends are always there and they keep changing their shapes their sizes thier enviroment their identity but I wont.Everything of mine is just mine and it cant be of others. I did realised thes things but now time has stepped a long way.Neway ther is never late for those who try and those who start.Now I have started my journey of new life lets see how far I will be able to walk on my way.
Best of luck to me :)
Vinod
"Wise men write blog because they have something to write but Fools write because they have to write something". I dont know in which category do I fall. Everything happens for a good cause perhaps my failure would bring more success some day. this makes me stronger everyday and I feel a confidence inside me these days becas I am getting failed and I could discover the exact reason of my being failure. I hope one day I could eliminate it. Some of the words were so inspiring for me tht it has kept a permanent place in my heart and I could listen the words again and again whenever I feel like listening it.
I have many things in heart and guess if the right moment comes I will be able to give them words. They need words to come out from my heart there is no other way by which I can let them come out of it. yeah a great thing happen with me When I was feeling as if I am a successful man or might be it was just a feelings for me then I found many around me but now I find they are still around me but they are now changed well it happens "success has got many parents and failure is an orphan". Though I am very poor in taking decisions but yet I have taken one. Let them others think tht u r a full .. let others think u r mad .. let others think whtever they want to think. Just be wht u r and dont give them right to decide wht u r and who u r . You r completely a unique identity with lots of hidden features with u and might be others are very special too but the best person is me.
After reading blogs of some unknown person (a girl from IIT D).I have got inner strenght.She mentioned the only person she has given importance in her life is her dad her mom her brother and herself. For me too Its the same case and I think I m no longer different than her in this respect. I love myself thts wht I mean.I dont care about others but I do care abt who I am and wht I can be.Yeah friends are always there and they keep changing their shapes their sizes thier enviroment their identity but I wont.Everything of mine is just mine and it cant be of others. I did realised thes things but now time has stepped a long way.Neway ther is never late for those who try and those who start.Now I have started my journey of new life lets see how far I will be able to walk on my way.
Best of luck to me :)
Vinod
Monday, August 15, 2005
Friends.
These are my favorite quotes and I count myself lucky in the sense tht I got it somewhere a person from IIT I guess.I just copied it but really its worth reading.
It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.
A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it only takes a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.
Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be; because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to.
Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person too.
A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live life so that when you die... you are the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.
No man/woman is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry.
If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever.
Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say.
If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them.
Don't frown, because you never know who's falling in love with your smile!
If you judge people, you have no time to love them
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.
When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.
Please tell those people who mean something to you, to those who have touched your life in one way or another, to those who make you smile when you really need it, to those that make you see the brighter side of things when you are really down, and to those who you want to let them know that you appreciate their friendship.
Facts of life
At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
At least 15 people in this world love you, in some way.
The only reason anyone would ever hate you, is because they want to be just like you.
A smile from you, can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
You mean the world to someone.
Without you, someone may not be living.
You are special and unique, in your own way.
Someone that you don't know even exists, loves you.
When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
When you think the world has turned it's back on you, take a look, you most likely turned your back on the world.
When you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, you probably sooner or later will get it.
Always remember compliments you received, forget about the rude remarks.
Always tell someone how you feel about them, you will feel much better when they know.
If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they're great.
Rules for the new year
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.
No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.
God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.
Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don't stay on the bumps too long. Move on!
When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God has thought of something better to give you.
When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's savants, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.
You can't make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved; the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.
It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride. We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.
Never abandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you want to pick them from your dreams and hug them.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.
Happiness lives for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
I believe-
that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
that you can keep going long after you can't.
that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push.
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover, HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE.
Some people make the world SPECIAL just by being in it.
BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND will be there.
TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS.
Friends are FOREVER.
Good friends are like stars....You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Don't frown. You never know who is falling in love with your smile.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of you life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
MEMO FROM GOD:
To: YOU
Date: TODAY
From: THE BOSS
Subject: YOURSELF
Reference: LIFE
I am God. Today I will be handling all of your problems. Please remember that I do not need your help.
If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it. Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. It will be addressed in My time, not yours. Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it.
If you find yourself stuck in traffic; Don't despair. There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.
Should you have a bad day at work; Think of the man who has been out of work for years.
Should you despair over a relationship gone bad; Think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.
Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.
Should your car break down, leaving you miles away From assistance; Think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.
Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror; Think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.
Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.
Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; Remember, things could be worse. You could be them!!!!
A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beards sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them. She said "I don't think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have something to eat."
"Is the man of the house home?", they asked.
"No", she replied. "He's out."
"Then we cannot come in", they replied.
In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened.
"Go tell them I am home and invite them in!"
The woman went out and invited the men in.
"We do not go into a House together," they replied
"Why is that?" she asked.
One of the old men explained: "His name is Wealth," he said pointing to one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, "He is Success, and I am Love." Then he added, "Now go in and discuss with your husband which one of us you want in your home."
The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her husband was overjoyed. "How nice!!", he said. "Since that is the case, let us invite Wealth. Let him come and fill our home with wealth!"
His wife disagreed. "My dear, why don't we invite Success?" Their daughter-in-law was listening from the other corner of the house. She jumped in with her own suggestion: "Would it not be better to invite Love? Our home will then be filled with love!"
"Let us heed our daughter-in-law's advice," said the husband to his wife.
"Go out and invite Love to be our guest."
The woman went out and asked the 3 old men, "Which one of you is Love? Please come in and be our guest."
Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other 2 also got up and followed him. Surprised, the lady asked Wealth and Success: "I only invited Love, Why are you coming in?"
The old men replied together: "If you had invited Wealth or Success, the other two of us would've stayed out, but since you invited Love, wherever He goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, there is also Wealth and Success!!!!!!"
MY WISH FOR YOU...
-Where there is pain, I wish you peace and mercy.
-Where there is self-doubting, I wish you a renewed confidence in your ability to work through it.
-Where there is tiredness, or exhaustion, I wish you understanding, patience, and renewed strength.
-Where there is fear, I wish you love, and courage.
Pay attention to what you read. After you read this, you will know the reason why!
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON. It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent has been answered. And not it is time to move on.
When people come into your life for a SEASON. Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is for real! But, only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind, but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life.
Work like you don't need the money, Love like you've never been hurt, and Dance like no one is watching.
A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.
A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.
A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you HAVE an argument.
A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!
A ball is a circle,
No beginning, no end.
It keeps us together, like our Circle of Friends.
But the treasure inside for you to see is the
treasure of friendship you've granted to me.
Today I pass the friendship ball to you.
Pass it on to someone who is a friend to you.....
For All the World To See
I had a dream the other night An angel came to me in white. She took me by her gentle hand Saying, "I'll show you things that are so grand." She took me to the mountain tops. We flew above the seas. Then we viewed the forest, So beautiful and green. In this dream she walked with me As we entered a beautiful meadow. She said, "His love and inspiration are for all the world to see. Come and close your eyes, dear child, Come dream awhile with me. Lay your head upon my lap. It's softness is your pillow," As she sang me to sleep beneath the weeping willow. The butterflies danced in
Think about them one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one.........IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD specially the thought at the end.
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!) (or strawberry)
13. A long distance phone call.
14. A bubble bath.
15. Giggling.
16. A good conversation.
17. The beach.
18. Finding a 20 in your coat from last winter.
19. Laughing at yourself.
20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
21. Running through sprinklers.
22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
24. Laughing at an inside joke.
25. Friends.
26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
30. Playing with a new puppy.
31. Having someone play with your hair.
32. Sweet dreams.
33. Hot chocolate.
34. Road trips with friends.
35. Swinging on swings.
36. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies and drinking your favourite tipple.
37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
38. Going to a really good concert.
39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
40. Winning a really competitive game.
41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
42. Having your friends send you home-made cookies.
43. Spending time with close friends.
44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
48. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
49. Watching the sunrise.
50. Getting out of bed every morning and thanking God for another beautiful day.
Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.
Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what.
Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.
Let's think about what God HAS blessed us with. And what we are doing each day to promote ourselves mentally, physically, emotionally, as well shot at this and then it's gone. I hope you all have a blessed day.
Beautiful Women
Age 3: She looks at herself and sees a Queen.
Age 8: She looks at herself and sees Cinderella.
Age 15: She looks at herself and sees an Ugly Sister (Mum I can't go to school looking like this!)
Age 20: She looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly"- but decides she's going out anyway.
Age 30: She looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly" - but decides she doesn't have time to fix it, so she's going out anyway.
Age 40: She looks at herself and sees "clean" and goes out anyway.
Age 50: She looks at herself and sees "I am" and goes wherever she wants to go.
Age 60: She looks at herself and reminds herself of all the people who can't even see themselves in the mirror anymore. Goes out and conquers the world.
Age 70: She looks at herself & sees wisdom, laughter and ability, goes out and enjoys life.
Age 80: Doesn't bother to look. Just puts on a purple hat and goes out to have fun with the world.
Keep your heart free from hate, your mind from worry, your body from abuse. Live simply; expect little; give much. Think of the other person; forget yourself. Always do as you would be done by.
Don't hurry, don't worry. You're only here for a short visit. So be sure and stop to smell the flowers. --- Walter Hagen
Be careful when you put off the enjoyment of life until the time is right. Before you know it, the right time can change into a lost opportunity.
I wont say sorry here for copying because its a worth to be copied.I'm really grateful to that unknown writer for a nice collection.
thanks Vinod
It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.
A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it only takes a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.
Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be; because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to.
Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person too.
A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live life so that when you die... you are the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.
No man/woman is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry.
If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever.
Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say.
If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them.
Don't frown, because you never know who's falling in love with your smile!
If you judge people, you have no time to love them
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.
When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.
Please tell those people who mean something to you, to those who have touched your life in one way or another, to those who make you smile when you really need it, to those that make you see the brighter side of things when you are really down, and to those who you want to let them know that you appreciate their friendship.
Facts of life
At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
At least 15 people in this world love you, in some way.
The only reason anyone would ever hate you, is because they want to be just like you.
A smile from you, can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
You mean the world to someone.
Without you, someone may not be living.
You are special and unique, in your own way.
Someone that you don't know even exists, loves you.
When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
When you think the world has turned it's back on you, take a look, you most likely turned your back on the world.
When you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, you probably sooner or later will get it.
Always remember compliments you received, forget about the rude remarks.
Always tell someone how you feel about them, you will feel much better when they know.
If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they're great.
Rules for the new year
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.
No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.
God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.
Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don't stay on the bumps too long. Move on!
When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God has thought of something better to give you.
When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's savants, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.
You can't make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved; the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.
It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride. We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.
Never abandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you want to pick them from your dreams and hug them.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.
Happiness lives for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
I believe-
that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
that you can keep going long after you can't.
that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push.
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover, HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE.
Some people make the world SPECIAL just by being in it.
BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND will be there.
TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS.
Friends are FOREVER.
Good friends are like stars....You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Don't frown. You never know who is falling in love with your smile.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of you life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
MEMO FROM GOD:
To: YOU
Date: TODAY
From: THE BOSS
Subject: YOURSELF
Reference: LIFE
I am God. Today I will be handling all of your problems. Please remember that I do not need your help.
If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it. Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. It will be addressed in My time, not yours. Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it.
If you find yourself stuck in traffic; Don't despair. There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.
Should you have a bad day at work; Think of the man who has been out of work for years.
Should you despair over a relationship gone bad; Think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.
Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.
Should your car break down, leaving you miles away From assistance; Think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.
Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror; Think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.
Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.
Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; Remember, things could be worse. You could be them!!!!
A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beards sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them. She said "I don't think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have something to eat."
"Is the man of the house home?", they asked.
"No", she replied. "He's out."
"Then we cannot come in", they replied.
In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened.
"Go tell them I am home and invite them in!"
The woman went out and invited the men in.
"We do not go into a House together," they replied
"Why is that?" she asked.
One of the old men explained: "His name is Wealth," he said pointing to one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, "He is Success, and I am Love." Then he added, "Now go in and discuss with your husband which one of us you want in your home."
The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her husband was overjoyed. "How nice!!", he said. "Since that is the case, let us invite Wealth. Let him come and fill our home with wealth!"
His wife disagreed. "My dear, why don't we invite Success?" Their daughter-in-law was listening from the other corner of the house. She jumped in with her own suggestion: "Would it not be better to invite Love? Our home will then be filled with love!"
"Let us heed our daughter-in-law's advice," said the husband to his wife.
"Go out and invite Love to be our guest."
The woman went out and asked the 3 old men, "Which one of you is Love? Please come in and be our guest."
Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other 2 also got up and followed him. Surprised, the lady asked Wealth and Success: "I only invited Love, Why are you coming in?"
The old men replied together: "If you had invited Wealth or Success, the other two of us would've stayed out, but since you invited Love, wherever He goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, there is also Wealth and Success!!!!!!"
MY WISH FOR YOU...
-Where there is pain, I wish you peace and mercy.
-Where there is self-doubting, I wish you a renewed confidence in your ability to work through it.
-Where there is tiredness, or exhaustion, I wish you understanding, patience, and renewed strength.
-Where there is fear, I wish you love, and courage.
Pay attention to what you read. After you read this, you will know the reason why!
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON. It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent has been answered. And not it is time to move on.
When people come into your life for a SEASON. Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is for real! But, only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind, but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life.
Work like you don't need the money, Love like you've never been hurt, and Dance like no one is watching.
A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.
A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.
A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you HAVE an argument.
A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!
A ball is a circle,
No beginning, no end.
It keeps us together, like our Circle of Friends.
But the treasure inside for you to see is the
treasure of friendship you've granted to me.
Today I pass the friendship ball to you.
Pass it on to someone who is a friend to you.....
For All the World To See
I had a dream the other night An angel came to me in white. She took me by her gentle hand Saying, "I'll show you things that are so grand." She took me to the mountain tops. We flew above the seas. Then we viewed the forest, So beautiful and green. In this dream she walked with me As we entered a beautiful meadow. She said, "His love and inspiration are for all the world to see. Come and close your eyes, dear child, Come dream awhile with me. Lay your head upon my lap. It's softness is your pillow," As she sang me to sleep beneath the weeping willow. The butterflies danced in
Think about them one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one.........IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD specially the thought at the end.
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!) (or strawberry)
13. A long distance phone call.
14. A bubble bath.
15. Giggling.
16. A good conversation.
17. The beach.
18. Finding a 20 in your coat from last winter.
19. Laughing at yourself.
20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
21. Running through sprinklers.
22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
24. Laughing at an inside joke.
25. Friends.
26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
30. Playing with a new puppy.
31. Having someone play with your hair.
32. Sweet dreams.
33. Hot chocolate.
34. Road trips with friends.
35. Swinging on swings.
36. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies and drinking your favourite tipple.
37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
38. Going to a really good concert.
39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
40. Winning a really competitive game.
41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
42. Having your friends send you home-made cookies.
43. Spending time with close friends.
44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
48. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
49. Watching the sunrise.
50. Getting out of bed every morning and thanking God for another beautiful day.
Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.
Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what.
Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.
Let's think about what God HAS blessed us with. And what we are doing each day to promote ourselves mentally, physically, emotionally, as well shot at this and then it's gone. I hope you all have a blessed day.
Beautiful Women
Age 3: She looks at herself and sees a Queen.
Age 8: She looks at herself and sees Cinderella.
Age 15: She looks at herself and sees an Ugly Sister (Mum I can't go to school looking like this!)
Age 20: She looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly"- but decides she's going out anyway.
Age 30: She looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly" - but decides she doesn't have time to fix it, so she's going out anyway.
Age 40: She looks at herself and sees "clean" and goes out anyway.
Age 50: She looks at herself and sees "I am" and goes wherever she wants to go.
Age 60: She looks at herself and reminds herself of all the people who can't even see themselves in the mirror anymore. Goes out and conquers the world.
Age 70: She looks at herself & sees wisdom, laughter and ability, goes out and enjoys life.
Age 80: Doesn't bother to look. Just puts on a purple hat and goes out to have fun with the world.
Keep your heart free from hate, your mind from worry, your body from abuse. Live simply; expect little; give much. Think of the other person; forget yourself. Always do as you would be done by.
Don't hurry, don't worry. You're only here for a short visit. So be sure and stop to smell the flowers. --- Walter Hagen
Be careful when you put off the enjoyment of life until the time is right. Before you know it, the right time can change into a lost opportunity.
I wont say sorry here for copying because its a worth to be copied.I'm really grateful to that unknown writer for a nice collection.
thanks Vinod
Friday, August 12, 2005
Failure_Counter++
My first match was with Oracle
Couldnt make use of my Akal
Backed to my pavellion without opening account
Failure became failure + count
Infy was the second match
Couldnt bother to drop ne catch
Was not at all happy with it
Cuz it was nothing but a s**t
CA was totally a bouncer
Silently increased my "Failure Counter"
TCS came with little surprise
But I tried to become extra wise
Verizon brought one more laurel to me
Was totally taken aback to see
IBM came little late brought some smile
But I realised it lasted only for a while
Bhai Wipro was playing some other game
I got some problem there so I came
CSC was too cool
lastly made me a bloody fool
Everyday counter added new node
Couldn't even cry on the road
Adobe was a dream for me
Dont know if it was Warne or LEE
But bowled me on duck
I was now out of my luck
Amdocs was last in the series
Thought to open an account there
They didnt even bother and care
They thrown me right
Saala I didnt even fight
That series I lost
Had to pay a big cost
Abe Synopsys ne maara mujhko
Abhi tak samajh nahi aaya tujhko?
for Hughes I gave a careless try
Didnt find the time to cry
Google took my interview on phone
Testing nahi aati hai yaar..so gone
SETLabs was a new star
But I again got nothing yaar
SapLabs was totally in control
prepared well for this whole
pata nahi mera kahan tha HOLE
Saale ne daal diya "pole"
Microsoft is the recent crush
Went leaving my life with lots of fuss
Chalo ye hai meri Counter kahani
Dooba hun wahan jahan kam tha paani
Yaar "DIL" ho ya ho career
I have always found a barier.
chal bye
Vinod
Couldnt make use of my Akal
Backed to my pavellion without opening account
Failure became failure + count
Infy was the second match
Couldnt bother to drop ne catch
Was not at all happy with it
Cuz it was nothing but a s**t
CA was totally a bouncer
Silently increased my "Failure Counter"
TCS came with little surprise
But I tried to become extra wise
Verizon brought one more laurel to me
Was totally taken aback to see
IBM came little late brought some smile
But I realised it lasted only for a while
Bhai Wipro was playing some other game
I got some problem there so I came
CSC was too cool
lastly made me a bloody fool
Everyday counter added new node
Couldn't even cry on the road
Adobe was a dream for me
Dont know if it was Warne or LEE
But bowled me on duck
I was now out of my luck
Amdocs was last in the series
Thought to open an account there
They didnt even bother and care
They thrown me right
Saala I didnt even fight
That series I lost
Had to pay a big cost
Abe Synopsys ne maara mujhko
Abhi tak samajh nahi aaya tujhko?
for Hughes I gave a careless try
Didnt find the time to cry
Google took my interview on phone
Testing nahi aati hai yaar..so gone
SETLabs was a new star
But I again got nothing yaar
SapLabs was totally in control
prepared well for this whole
pata nahi mera kahan tha HOLE
Saale ne daal diya "pole"
Microsoft is the recent crush
Went leaving my life with lots of fuss
Chalo ye hai meri Counter kahani
Dooba hun wahan jahan kam tha paani
Yaar "DIL" ho ya ho career
I have always found a barier.
chal bye
Vinod
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Phata hua Kismat.
My linked list of failure has got two new nodes .... dont know if I ever encountered with the NULL pointer ........ hope its not a circular linked list.Some of the functions of my "FAILURE LINKED LIST" are as follows.
AddBegining - Dont care Order wont be affected.No extra space needed.
Addlast - Every addition of new node takes O(stress) time and O(frustration) space complexity.
DelBegining - Best case will take polynomial time
DelMiddle - Can be deleted but taking care of next pointer.
For every above defined functions I need an extra space which is O(tension ^2) and creates some dangling pointers.
Special case - So far NO null pointer :(. turning it to be a circular linked list.
Abe chhoro yaar BC tension se mera dimaag kharab ho raha hai. Yaar only 5 ppl got shortlisted n I was one of them so lucky for a moment and got bold on the next moment ball.Whole world got changed for me the next moment.
Failure is the ladder of success but this looks good when it is written only in the book its really bad to actually feel it. Lagta hai I am made or destined for Infosys yaaar. Now I have lost my diamond opportunity as I failed in MS interview :(...so bad but guess wht I learnt a new lesson.I m very thankful to patke,manjeet,kartika,pammy and sanyam for their help during my test time.Though I got totally differnt questions.That is other part of the story.
I got frustrated today as I couldnt present my best.Question was so easy for me that I could have end up giving 10 solutions but its my destiny tht didnt strike my mind to solve tht one at tht very instant. I took little bit more time and even wrote some bugful code tht I corrected it later but by tht time I was gone.
I know tht MS is not the last company in the world and failure once means not the end of the world but at the same time I think I am stupid and idiot too.I have really some problems to worked out for.SAP Labs bhi waisa hi hai. written cleared interview failed.Yaar fail ka ye silsila kab tak chalega? samajh mein nahi aata hai kya karun.Once upon a time I had all the options of both the MM.But now no M and no M only K.
chalo apna linked list to bana lun kitno mein main fail hua hun.
Oracle written fail
Infosys Chal kuch to mila
CA fir written fail
TCS interview screwed
Verizone written fail
IBM interview fail
Novell did not write
wipro interview screwed
kanbay did not try
CSC interview fail
Amodcs interview fail
Adobe written fail
Trilogy did not write
synopsys screwed interview
Hughes written fail
Oracle interview fail
SAP Labs interview fail
Microsoft interview fail
total statistics -- 9 written cleared -- 5 technical interview cleared -- three srewed HR interview -- finally got in Infosys.
I dont knwo when I will be able get over my failures. AB to SETLabs mein kaam karna hi padega .. nahi to yahan bhi nikaal dega. ok just wish me a luck Bye vinod
AddBegining - Dont care Order wont be affected.No extra space needed.
Addlast - Every addition of new node takes O(stress) time and O(frustration) space complexity.
DelBegining - Best case will take polynomial time
DelMiddle - Can be deleted but taking care of next pointer.
For every above defined functions I need an extra space which is O(tension ^2) and creates some dangling pointers.
Special case - So far NO null pointer :(. turning it to be a circular linked list.
Abe chhoro yaar BC tension se mera dimaag kharab ho raha hai. Yaar only 5 ppl got shortlisted n I was one of them so lucky for a moment and got bold on the next moment ball.Whole world got changed for me the next moment.
Failure is the ladder of success but this looks good when it is written only in the book its really bad to actually feel it. Lagta hai I am made or destined for Infosys yaaar. Now I have lost my diamond opportunity as I failed in MS interview :(...so bad but guess wht I learnt a new lesson.I m very thankful to patke,manjeet,kartika,pammy and sanyam for their help during my test time.Though I got totally differnt questions.That is other part of the story.
I got frustrated today as I couldnt present my best.Question was so easy for me that I could have end up giving 10 solutions but its my destiny tht didnt strike my mind to solve tht one at tht very instant. I took little bit more time and even wrote some bugful code tht I corrected it later but by tht time I was gone.
I know tht MS is not the last company in the world and failure once means not the end of the world but at the same time I think I am stupid and idiot too.I have really some problems to worked out for.SAP Labs bhi waisa hi hai. written cleared interview failed.Yaar fail ka ye silsila kab tak chalega? samajh mein nahi aata hai kya karun.Once upon a time I had all the options of both the MM.But now no M and no M only K.
chalo apna linked list to bana lun kitno mein main fail hua hun.
Oracle written fail
Infosys Chal kuch to mila
CA fir written fail
TCS interview screwed
Verizone written fail
IBM interview fail
Novell did not write
wipro interview screwed
kanbay did not try
CSC interview fail
Amodcs interview fail
Adobe written fail
Trilogy did not write
synopsys screwed interview
Hughes written fail
Oracle interview fail
SAP Labs interview fail
Microsoft interview fail
total statistics -- 9 written cleared -- 5 technical interview cleared -- three srewed HR interview -- finally got in Infosys.
I dont knwo when I will be able get over my failures. AB to SETLabs mein kaam karna hi padega .. nahi to yahan bhi nikaal dega. ok just wish me a luck Bye vinod
Friday, August 05, 2005
Coolest Friday ...
SETLabs is like our college Labs only in the sense of timing. Well how can I forget those six months not going to my favorite past time tht is .... going lab.Here too I dont miss anything if I say anything I mean anything. I have the same yahoo messenger and of course my passion of chatting still continues on MSN too. Some of the coolest friends of mine are only in MSN so I can't think of my life without MSN.Here in infosys most of the ppl dont have internet access during office hour but I count myself to be lucky one and fall into a privillege group who has internet access 24/7.So one can find me online even 24 hrs.Of course sometimes I am in invisible mode because ....... samjha karo bhai (no external disturbanc).
Today .....I mean last night I was here wasting my time in the real sense it happens when you are alone in the biggest hall with lots of facilies then you will end up in doing smt nonsense and I dont change the rule. With the sleepless night (horrible night really) cuz didnt get the vacant bed to sleep at 3:20 AM and had to settle for making a small nap over a damn small chair which cant even handle this little creature like me. Well night was a nightmare for me but day has brought something good for me.I was in my room sleeping at 6:00 AM when a call from some1 dared to disturb me but of course I didnt mind it . After sometime my bros called me saying that I got a nephew :).It was really cool moment for me.
After talking I cudnt bear and fight with this sleepy eyes. These tiny eyes reciprocated and denied to cope with me. SO they made me sleep agin..It was really late when the sun was overhead n with his bright rays passed a message to my eyes ..... hey enough is enough yaar ab to uth jaao.It was now 12 PM. Without having my bath I rushed to my office thinking smt wrong would happen with me today as I m so late but alas no such thing happend with me because my PM is really a cool person. He never cared when I come or go but he is only concerned abt the work tht I m in halfway.
Of course it is now lunch time n I cant even wait for any1 to accompany me ..... so sad I generally take my lunch alone thinking sm1 would accompany me.I had good lunch hey infy really serve a well balanced lunch.After lunch I went to office to do push my wheel of work little further.My PM came thr so I thought its right moment to make him a C*****.so I shown my half done work. Then I realiased its enough for today lets have a break. I came to cafe for browsing yaar cuz I dont feel comfortable in browsing while sitting in my cabin. Cafe is a place u can come anytime n access internet or use computer.But for internet u need special permission like me :).
Tab se abhi tak yahin hun .. kitni aayi aur kitni gayi lekin main to wahin ka wahin hun.Abhi tak online. yaar friday se achcha koi din nahi hota hai cuz u really wait for friday night ->saturday morning->saturday evening->sunday morning->of course sunday evening - >but ! monday morning. Aaaj waise kuchh kaam nahi kiya hun ... aaj kapde bhi dhone hain.so ab chalta hun.
Bye
vinod
Today .....I mean last night I was here wasting my time in the real sense it happens when you are alone in the biggest hall with lots of facilies then you will end up in doing smt nonsense and I dont change the rule. With the sleepless night (horrible night really) cuz didnt get the vacant bed to sleep at 3:20 AM and had to settle for making a small nap over a damn small chair which cant even handle this little creature like me. Well night was a nightmare for me but day has brought something good for me.I was in my room sleeping at 6:00 AM when a call from some1 dared to disturb me but of course I didnt mind it . After sometime my bros called me saying that I got a nephew :).It was really cool moment for me.
After talking I cudnt bear and fight with this sleepy eyes. These tiny eyes reciprocated and denied to cope with me. SO they made me sleep agin..It was really late when the sun was overhead n with his bright rays passed a message to my eyes ..... hey enough is enough yaar ab to uth jaao.It was now 12 PM. Without having my bath I rushed to my office thinking smt wrong would happen with me today as I m so late but alas no such thing happend with me because my PM is really a cool person. He never cared when I come or go but he is only concerned abt the work tht I m in halfway.
Of course it is now lunch time n I cant even wait for any1 to accompany me ..... so sad I generally take my lunch alone thinking sm1 would accompany me.I had good lunch hey infy really serve a well balanced lunch.After lunch I went to office to do push my wheel of work little further.My PM came thr so I thought its right moment to make him a C*****.so I shown my half done work. Then I realiased its enough for today lets have a break. I came to cafe for browsing yaar cuz I dont feel comfortable in browsing while sitting in my cabin. Cafe is a place u can come anytime n access internet or use computer.But for internet u need special permission like me :).
Tab se abhi tak yahin hun .. kitni aayi aur kitni gayi lekin main to wahin ka wahin hun.Abhi tak online. yaar friday se achcha koi din nahi hota hai cuz u really wait for friday night ->saturday morning->saturday evening->sunday morning->of course sunday evening - >but ! monday morning. Aaaj waise kuchh kaam nahi kiya hun ... aaj kapde bhi dhone hain.so ab chalta hun.
Bye
vinod
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Weekend Jhatka ...
Bhai logon (bahen jee excuse me) .... yaar kaun kahta hai ki life mein ek hi cheez constant hai and that constant is "change" .......but I strongly disagree with this point. After a great disaster once again in my life I recovered quickly now. No grievances no regret no tension no senti ......... sirf mast rahne kaa. Saala this week was full of problems for me and it ended in a gr8 disappointment.Somebody left me again ....... yaar smart and handsome nahi hone ka itni badi saza milti hai.
Wow I remember ....... "Throughtout my life I have been looking for a perfect girl and lastly I found her .... oh shit she was also looking for a perfect boy"..... Chalo forum ki taraf chalte hain ... bahut bhari pari hai yaar koi tension nahi lene kaa. I realised the truth of life here when I talk with some girl over here in infosys (So sad few girl only aunties and uncles here :(( ) I came to a common conclusion if a girl is beautiful and she is working for more than a month or two , she is having a boyfriend for sure ...... and if it not so then that girl is not beautiful for sure. So I end up with meeting with her boyfriends or brothers :( so pitious. I hate boyfriends and brothers but how far a life can go without these ppl.
Yeah I am smart re ... no doubt I feel I am smart at heart , handsome at my smile, witted at my thought, cool at head, calm at behavior...... hey what a girl would go for more than these qualities :))) :D ..... of course they would go for something I dont have but really I cant help it yaaar.
Forum now ....... enter into it. No need to flip your eyelids. Even coming drops from ur eyes would get soaked once you enter the gate.I was not in much surprised when I saw a half nude and exra modern girl smoking with their lots of boyfriends..... well thats her life n who I am to comment but yeat thats my life I have freedome to say my words dude. In banglore if u want to spend your weekend then just for some maals and forum ...... u will really get thrilled by the customs and modernity.I really enjoy there a lot even if I dont have someone with me .......who cares.Someday I would find someone special too for me because I think I am special too.I am Vinod Gupta and there is no1 in the world who is like me. I have everything mine ...... these two twinkling eyes I have not borrowed from anyone, even this scanty brown and white hairs is my very own.
Arey haan forum ki baat kar rahe the .... we met in forum but had only sad news with me to share with them this sunday so didnt get my words uttered.Met with Amal as*****,Bhavs,Evergreen piyush, Addy (I dont know what problem do I have with this very guy),Gadar (research) and Kakaji (sarnoff gr8) and above all our all time best achiever *anubhav.Shared some LIGHTmoments in a lightful mac'donald where I didnt had anything :( .... burger khaata nahi n thanda laga hai to thanda piya nahi. kuchh bhooli bichhare baatein kiye and one thing more about amal I noticed ....... HE IS STILL THE SAME ......... NO CHANGE IN LAST ONE MONTH PAHLE BHI J****** THA AND STILL HE IS A J******.
aur kya sunaye .... kuchh khaas isbaar nahi huya hai ..... haan yesterday I again tried my luck here in setlabs with a little girl working with me but again failed.yaaaar mere saaath ek hi cheez constant hai wo hai ........ FAILURE.waise I know I am on and on .... try maarte rahna chahiye kaun janta hai kab kahan kaise kyon aur kise kya mil jaaye.
miles to go before I sleep .... thousands to try before I fail.
Isiliye to abhi tak yahan office mein hun ....... raat ke ek baje RESEARCH JO KAR RAHA HUN :)) :D ....
chalo good night.aur haan I am still in setlabs koi change nahi hua.
bye
Vinod
Wow I remember ....... "Throughtout my life I have been looking for a perfect girl and lastly I found her .... oh shit she was also looking for a perfect boy"..... Chalo forum ki taraf chalte hain ... bahut bhari pari hai yaar koi tension nahi lene kaa. I realised the truth of life here when I talk with some girl over here in infosys (So sad few girl only aunties and uncles here :(( ) I came to a common conclusion if a girl is beautiful and she is working for more than a month or two , she is having a boyfriend for sure ...... and if it not so then that girl is not beautiful for sure. So I end up with meeting with her boyfriends or brothers :( so pitious. I hate boyfriends and brothers but how far a life can go without these ppl.
Yeah I am smart re ... no doubt I feel I am smart at heart , handsome at my smile, witted at my thought, cool at head, calm at behavior...... hey what a girl would go for more than these qualities :))) :D ..... of course they would go for something I dont have but really I cant help it yaaar.
Forum now ....... enter into it. No need to flip your eyelids. Even coming drops from ur eyes would get soaked once you enter the gate.I was not in much surprised when I saw a half nude and exra modern girl smoking with their lots of boyfriends..... well thats her life n who I am to comment but yeat thats my life I have freedome to say my words dude. In banglore if u want to spend your weekend then just for some maals and forum ...... u will really get thrilled by the customs and modernity.I really enjoy there a lot even if I dont have someone with me .......who cares.Someday I would find someone special too for me because I think I am special too.I am Vinod Gupta and there is no1 in the world who is like me. I have everything mine ...... these two twinkling eyes I have not borrowed from anyone, even this scanty brown and white hairs is my very own.
Arey haan forum ki baat kar rahe the .... we met in forum but had only sad news with me to share with them this sunday so didnt get my words uttered.Met with Amal as*****,Bhavs,Evergreen piyush, Addy (I dont know what problem do I have with this very guy),Gadar (research) and Kakaji (sarnoff gr8) and above all our all time best achiever *anubhav.Shared some LIGHTmoments in a lightful mac'donald where I didnt had anything :( .... burger khaata nahi n thanda laga hai to thanda piya nahi. kuchh bhooli bichhare baatein kiye and one thing more about amal I noticed ....... HE IS STILL THE SAME ......... NO CHANGE IN LAST ONE MONTH PAHLE BHI J****** THA AND STILL HE IS A J******.
aur kya sunaye .... kuchh khaas isbaar nahi huya hai ..... haan yesterday I again tried my luck here in setlabs with a little girl working with me but again failed.yaaaar mere saaath ek hi cheez constant hai wo hai ........ FAILURE.waise I know I am on and on .... try maarte rahna chahiye kaun janta hai kab kahan kaise kyon aur kise kya mil jaaye.
miles to go before I sleep .... thousands to try before I fail.
Isiliye to abhi tak yahan office mein hun ....... raat ke ek baje RESEARCH JO KAR RAHA HUN :)) :D ....
chalo good night.aur haan I am still in setlabs koi change nahi hua.
bye
Vinod
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Dedicated to someone most special for me ................. (forgive me guys)
The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have....
The worst thing in life is "To miss someone who is sitting right beside you".
The most embarrasing moment of life "when you see someone you like going with someone she likes".
It hurts to breathe because every breath I take proves I can't live without you.
Few people can be happy unless they hate some other person.
If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
The best proof of love is trust.
True love never lives happily ever after - true love has no ending.
I believe I wont forget you ........... the only thing I can do for you is to stop breathing because I rememebr you in my all breathe.
chalo yaaar aaaj kuchh jyada hi tension ho gayi hai.Life mein tension nahi lene kaaaaaa jo hoga wo achcha hoga.will write soon about my gr8 gala achievments over here. Vinod
The worst thing in life is "To miss someone who is sitting right beside you".
The most embarrasing moment of life "when you see someone you like going with someone she likes".
It hurts to breathe because every breath I take proves I can't live without you.
Few people can be happy unless they hate some other person.
If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
The best proof of love is trust.
True love never lives happily ever after - true love has no ending.
I believe I wont forget you ........... the only thing I can do for you is to stop breathing because I rememebr you in my all breathe.
chalo yaaar aaaj kuchh jyada hi tension ho gayi hai.Life mein tension nahi lene kaaaaaa jo hoga wo achcha hoga.will write soon about my gr8 gala achievments over here. Vinod
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Monday, July 18, 2005
Kuchh BCs...
Arey haan bhai ye bc-time hi hai. I am sitting idle for no reason. Some bouncers of java basics bowled me completely and still fighting for the survival.Stupid naaa. well me just close to happy n though life ne to tension diya lekin I am now fine.Life mein tension nahi lene ka and life mein cooooool rahne ka. Some news from my side ... its good to work here in SETLabs until u get real problem like me waise SETLabs kaphi sahi hai guru.
well not going through the whole history I would say just one thing that SETLabs rocks because I have seen one thing here thoes who are woking in SETLabs atleasst they feel something different.Waise we are having atlest one ey e in the world of blinds so we are lucky to see some beautiful scene in the world but well said n aankh ka andha and naan nayansukh. These days I am enjoying completely with no tension now because I met one of my old friend and he really gave me lot of confidence and told me all the prons and cons of the life.
Well like ealier again I am bit lucky here because I found someone for what you call TP so not worried at all abt the life passing over here in bangl. Nothing is permanent so my tension is just like that and its now a moment back I left it somewhere tht I forgot.Currently busy with project where I have to write a small perl script for creating C functions and after that god knows wht I am gonna do next.By the same time I will be working on java and this java thing really s***.I like it but I dont know what is the problem with me that i ma not able to understand it properly so far still fihgthing with it.hope I would win some day.
BC grps u can find everywehre and so did I find.I can find some chandu , some dixit, some pandey , some bedi and all so really no proint of missing anyone they are always with me.BC ke liye forum jaana padta hai yaar a place where u can buy even the part of sky if u have money in the pocket as I already said.Abhi tak to I havent even bought anything not even a chaddi from forum because I would be buying only a part of chaddi not the part of sky.chal kya bc hai.......... samjha.
Bye vinod
VG Scribbles
well not going through the whole history I would say just one thing that SETLabs rocks because I have seen one thing here thoes who are woking in SETLabs atleasst they feel something different.Waise we are having atlest one ey e in the world of blinds so we are lucky to see some beautiful scene in the world but well said n aankh ka andha and naan nayansukh. These days I am enjoying completely with no tension now because I met one of my old friend and he really gave me lot of confidence and told me all the prons and cons of the life.
Well like ealier again I am bit lucky here because I found someone for what you call TP so not worried at all abt the life passing over here in bangl. Nothing is permanent so my tension is just like that and its now a moment back I left it somewhere tht I forgot.Currently busy with project where I have to write a small perl script for creating C functions and after that god knows wht I am gonna do next.By the same time I will be working on java and this java thing really s***.I like it but I dont know what is the problem with me that i ma not able to understand it properly so far still fihgthing with it.hope I would win some day.
BC grps u can find everywehre and so did I find.I can find some chandu , some dixit, some pandey , some bedi and all so really no proint of missing anyone they are always with me.BC ke liye forum jaana padta hai yaar a place where u can buy even the part of sky if u have money in the pocket as I already said.Abhi tak to I havent even bought anything not even a chaddi from forum because I would be buying only a part of chaddi not the part of sky.chal kya bc hai.......... samjha.
Bye vinod
VG Scribbles
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Very Idiotic Non Operational Dude
Life is so uncertain that u cant even tell wht is gonna be happen in the very next moment...... A week back I was in air of happiness and every blooming flowers in the garden of this blue sky used to showers me with their frangrance but now I myself in the dirty gutter (shoudlnt be used this strong word).Life has become hell for me ... not becas I am at wrong place but becas I am at the right place at wrong time.I am stil lin SETLabs but the world is changed for me.
Today I realised wht is the importance of brand name.Yeah may be IIIT has a brand name in Hyd but it has no name in infy as I guess becas they have still put us aside and they didnt even think of taking any person for SETLabs.
I would call myself lucky in this regard as I am working in a team of reseach project and this is the only section (hopefully I am right) where hard core programming is done.I could be a bit unlucky abt the status and the designation here as I am not among those IITians who got into SETLabs with me.They are at higher position thn me and they are paid differently. well might be our work are similar but responsibily differs. well I am still confused .... should I stay here in this hostile world or should I go for some other even smaller company than infy.Becas its a bit uncomfortable for me to work there as I feel inferior in front of them though superior to other infian. But I guess this statement suits me right this time ...... "Sometimes it is better to be tail of the Lion than the head of the rats."
Chalo koi baat nahi .... life is a challenge and I should take it as it comes.I will be trying for other companies too but at the same time I would be working in so called INFY.yaar package does matter.anyway wht could be done at this point of time I even told them tht I m gonna leave this company soon.who could be so rude than me.neways for the time being I am enjoying banglore....so exciting to be here.so colourful.... and I would say one thing for sure if you have money u can even buy the sky....everything can be bought here with money and for me this is the only problem.*****Instinctly it comes from my heart .... I think we should be born old and get younger every year - that would be perfect - by the time u have the money and the experience - u'll be young enough to enjoy life.****.
Bye Vinod ~
Today I realised wht is the importance of brand name.Yeah may be IIIT has a brand name in Hyd but it has no name in infy as I guess becas they have still put us aside and they didnt even think of taking any person for SETLabs.
I would call myself lucky in this regard as I am working in a team of reseach project and this is the only section (hopefully I am right) where hard core programming is done.I could be a bit unlucky abt the status and the designation here as I am not among those IITians who got into SETLabs with me.They are at higher position thn me and they are paid differently. well might be our work are similar but responsibily differs. well I am still confused .... should I stay here in this hostile world or should I go for some other even smaller company than infy.Becas its a bit uncomfortable for me to work there as I feel inferior in front of them though superior to other infian. But I guess this statement suits me right this time ...... "Sometimes it is better to be tail of the Lion than the head of the rats."
Chalo koi baat nahi .... life is a challenge and I should take it as it comes.I will be trying for other companies too but at the same time I would be working in so called INFY.yaar package does matter.anyway wht could be done at this point of time I even told them tht I m gonna leave this company soon.who could be so rude than me.neways for the time being I am enjoying banglore....so exciting to be here.so colourful.... and I would say one thing for sure if you have money u can even buy the sky....everything can be bought here with money and for me this is the only problem.*****Instinctly it comes from my heart .... I think we should be born old and get younger every year - that would be perfect - by the time u have the money and the experience - u'll be young enough to enjoy life.****.
Bye Vinod ~
Friday, July 01, 2005
Gr8 Empire
Once with setting moon, I had one opportunity to go and see ISB and my little brain got stuck up with those twinkling articulated building and had no words to praise those architecture. But when I came to bang. and mysore .... I got to see something that I could have never imagined to see it atleast in india. If you really want to see what Mr. Narayan Murthy is ??? Just have a day visit to bang and mysore Infosys. I'm sure U will be highly satisfied and really wont stop yourself to utter this word "wow what an empire".
I heard from the local ppl here saying tht Mr. Narayan used to come by scooter while he was changing this uninteresting world to a heaven. I personnally appreciate him for his great works.
when I was in my school I thought this is the biggest thing and the greatest place in india. I was told that we have the second biggest mess in Asia and I was very proud of it. But later when I joined IIIT I thought this is the best place and have the best facilities in india but again I was wrong but I guess it was good only. Now here again I would like to say the same words in my word only "This is mere my thinking and thinking can be wrong".
I never thought in my dream of joining Infosys as I never thought in my dream to join sainik school , IIIT studying CS as I was very much scared of Computers...... continuing the same treand I never thought of joining Infosys but my fate always wins over my dream. It always brings me there where I dont even wish but the brighter side is that I get the special satisfaction. The same thing happened here too. I am highly satisfied with the work and the culture as well as the people around me.
Who makes the company.Its we , our work culture , our thinking and displine.I'm sure I made a right decision to join this and I have no grudge abt anything.
In the end I would like to say that I wont make the same mistake what I made at IIIT.chalo kaaphi BC ho gaya. bye Vinod
I heard from the local ppl here saying tht Mr. Narayan used to come by scooter while he was changing this uninteresting world to a heaven. I personnally appreciate him for his great works.
when I was in my school I thought this is the biggest thing and the greatest place in india. I was told that we have the second biggest mess in Asia and I was very proud of it. But later when I joined IIIT I thought this is the best place and have the best facilities in india but again I was wrong but I guess it was good only. Now here again I would like to say the same words in my word only "This is mere my thinking and thinking can be wrong".
I never thought in my dream of joining Infosys as I never thought in my dream to join sainik school , IIIT studying CS as I was very much scared of Computers...... continuing the same treand I never thought of joining Infosys but my fate always wins over my dream. It always brings me there where I dont even wish but the brighter side is that I get the special satisfaction. The same thing happened here too. I am highly satisfied with the work and the culture as well as the people around me.
Who makes the company.Its we , our work culture , our thinking and displine.I'm sure I made a right decision to join this and I have no grudge abt anything.
In the end I would like to say that I wont make the same mistake what I made at IIIT.chalo kaaphi BC ho gaya. bye Vinod
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Time in SETLabs
Today is the second day for me in SETLabs but have nothing to do. I got into a research group and is assigned with a project that is mostly a related to research and Implementation. Well so far I have not met anyone like me here in this building who is fresher like me :( so bad missing all my days here. I got a project under a person who happens to be a classmate of Prosenjit sir and I was totally taken aback when he asked me to calll him by his name. That was atleast cool but when I came for the lunch with one of my project member he introduced me with other SETLabs ppl and it was of no bound of surprise to see those ppl they were highly qualified and they were like uncles to me.I am desperatly waiting for those who are going to join on 4th so tht I could have some company with those ppl.
Aur haan here people are really cool I have hardly seen any person like me who was scared of joining infy and used to curse myself.I think I fall into some alien group for these acts. Aur haan chandna bhai I'm really srry not to reply u I will be replying u all very soon. Just trying to get myself settled here in new world. Aur haan I got accomodation in a hotel that is not at all good but the one thing is that we are living with good ppl so I enjoy staying there too. Got some great friends here so missing of any1 is out of question but surely one thing is that I miss something ........ something that cant be put into words.
People over here are just carefree and dont even take tension for free they are independant and they are more friendly. They are enjoying life with no tension.so they are definitely different than me in that sense.chalo all the best to everyone.
bye and take care
Vinod
Aur haan here people are really cool I have hardly seen any person like me who was scared of joining infy and used to curse myself.I think I fall into some alien group for these acts. Aur haan chandna bhai I'm really srry not to reply u I will be replying u all very soon. Just trying to get myself settled here in new world. Aur haan I got accomodation in a hotel that is not at all good but the one thing is that we are living with good ppl so I enjoy staying there too. Got some great friends here so missing of any1 is out of question but surely one thing is that I miss something ........ something that cant be put into words.
People over here are just carefree and dont even take tension for free they are independant and they are more friendly. They are enjoying life with no tension.so they are definitely different than me in that sense.chalo all the best to everyone.
bye and take care
Vinod
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Mysore days are over ....
This is the wonderful place I have ever been. I liked this place because of Infosys.In true sense I enjoyed well but one doubt is always with me and this is creating a problem in my mind.anyway leaving aside tension part I am happy now.
yesterday I went to see Mysore palace its really a great experience for me. The palace is really cool and great.Most of the ppl from here already left so couldnt meet some of my friends too. I m doing fine and other things hardly matter for me. Not feeling well this time. bye Vinod
yesterday I went to see Mysore palace its really a great experience for me. The palace is really cool and great.Most of the ppl from here already left so couldnt meet some of my friends too. I m doing fine and other things hardly matter for me. Not feeling well this time. bye Vinod
Friday, June 24, 2005
SETLabs
Finally one of my dream came true to work with some of the greatest ppl.In SETLabs there are only IITians and BITs pilanian now one more addition that is IIITian too :d. Yesterday only I came to know about it and I became very happy.But I became sad becas I have leave my friends here they are really very very nice ppl.I like them all atleast they dont have feelings of compettion and I like this. They are very cool ppl and I especially like my group SR-7 and I cant forget those interactive classes where I landed up with many friends.Just in two days I could make more than 35 friends and u wont beleive they are very nice and caring and helping too.I know I wont be missing anyone becas I usually dont miss anyone becas whereever I go I find great friends and similar to the earlier friends but really their sweet fragrance of each and everyone from this interactive classes will remain always with me.
chalo going now bye
Vinod
chalo going now bye
Vinod
Friday, May 27, 2005
Bad days
Chirping of birds in the sky, twinkling stars during moonlight night, rising of sun in the early morning etc etc doesnt bring any happiness to me these days becas these days of my life are really hell for me. NO good news came so far , nothing great happened with me, no word of appreciation of my work and really nothing at all came wihout fuss. Looking as if I am alone standing in the middle of an island with no endling corner and nowhere to run nowhere really to get adjust. From down to dusk I have no real work spending time with this babage idiotic machine who doesnt even understand the feelings of anyone who is playing with it.
If I were a thief and could fly in the sky I would have stolen two bright stars for my eye who could dream well.Even night disturbs a lot with no sense of happiness.yeah still I m alive thats what matter to me. There are always problems in life and we have to face them boldly.Nothing to worry about. Atleast I am better than million who are even in worse condtion than I am.I am better than many and I belong to privillege group who has brought the problems himself with his deads.well no getting right words to write more.gotta go. bye vinod
If I were a thief and could fly in the sky I would have stolen two bright stars for my eye who could dream well.Even night disturbs a lot with no sense of happiness.yeah still I m alive thats what matter to me. There are always problems in life and we have to face them boldly.Nothing to worry about. Atleast I am better than million who are even in worse condtion than I am.I am better than many and I belong to privillege group who has brought the problems himself with his deads.well no getting right words to write more.gotta go. bye vinod
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Moments with some good ones.
Moments I spent here with some people I would never forgot.Not gonna write abt group 9 with whom I used to go to parties, movies , marketting, dinner n blah blah. But these people whom I can call friends atleast they had ear to listen my unspoken words. They wud realise one day wht they mean to me n I'm sure wht I mean to them.
U can easily jugde if u r in IIIT by seeing me with Arjun , a really gr8 guy with lots of brains but he doesnt find the right word to speak it out properly. only the ppl like me cud understand his broken words. Well most of my time I used to spent with him in his room doing BC but tht wasnt real BC I learnt a lot frm him. I know I wont be missing him becas I'm sure I wud find some1 like him whereever I go but frangrace of his presence inside my heart wud surely be with me forever. It is becas of arjun my CGPA is better than him becas at every point he helped me n for the fact I can tell u tht he never get frustrated by anything and that is the best thing I like in him. He rarely gets wht he deserves but no1 knows the real cause but I do.Neway a simple guy whom I really admire for his help throughout my study here. I had a real shoulder to cry on , a uninterupped ear to put my words without fear, an eye where I can see lots of dreams to share.
Second person with whom one cud easily notice is dixit but being together is not called friendship. So I never thought tht he is my friend but of course he was very close to me (a true member of our group 9). He is really not a cool guy becas he buys tension with money.Well really a hard working and good at heart never thinks to harm anyone. The only problem with him is he is an egotist (a person always talks abt himself) I never found myself comfortable in uttering my real words to him. He never given me opportunity to say wht I feel but always used to say his story which I really liked. I'm a human being n even I have heart where I do feel something so I too need someone to listen me but for me he was never a good listener.Anyway he is a great guy , helping nature and famous among girls and most important thing is he is very humorous and friendly.
Patke a real friend of mine. Whenever I dont get anything done, if I dont find anyone to help me .. when I have something to share then this guy always stands before me to listen me a guy whom I respect for his help.I nver wanted to come closer to him becas of some1 who is really very close to him. But though he is very close to me n share most of his secrets with me.I liked his helping nature but to understand him properly one needs to be with for quite sometime.A friend of mine since very first year.A perfect all rounder n let others feel jealous of him... I like him too.Atleast u can tell this person a true friend.
Patti a nver understood close person to me.Since he likes the company of lonelyness so he used to be alone and even I guess he enjoys being alone.He came in close contact with me when we were in 2nd year and since then he had been a close person to me. Well he will never realise wht he meant to me but I know in the sense of study he gave me some good piece of advice.I like his nature of critically analysing the problems and giving comments of how things are going on.Well I wanted to talk to this guy becas there was a self hidden behind it.I wanted to improve my communication skills and this is the right person with whom I can freely say whatever I can .... with little bit taking care of pronunciation n grammar.We are hardly friends and he too knows we are not friends but smt is ther inside both so we again got together after one year gap we stopped talking becas sometimes he is really weird but I guess this is a childhood problem so who cares becas I no him now.A great guy in studying going to get his brain drained in US.
A person whom I met before coming here. A great person but equally egoistic than me.Asheesh has been my friend since the begining and he is really a very helping friend who can harm himself for helping others.Only problem is sometimes he behaves weird that I didnt like and since I m also egoist we now dont talk these days. A person really cool even if he gets less marks he hardly cares good at study and a very very good listener and thats wht I liked in him.He is the one with whom I used to share secrets but not all . He is also very close to me it doesnt matter if we talk or dont talk. But I know wht he meant to me and he might one day realise wht I meant to him.A true friend if u r his friend otherwise just a stranger. A caring and helping person now a days lost in gaming.
Thats all I have here at IIIT though there are few others too but they are not so close but yup they r also good to me, But they r not someone whom I meant to them a lot or they meant to me a lot.
Its long only naaa.
chalo bye Vinod
U can easily jugde if u r in IIIT by seeing me with Arjun , a really gr8 guy with lots of brains but he doesnt find the right word to speak it out properly. only the ppl like me cud understand his broken words. Well most of my time I used to spent with him in his room doing BC but tht wasnt real BC I learnt a lot frm him. I know I wont be missing him becas I'm sure I wud find some1 like him whereever I go but frangrace of his presence inside my heart wud surely be with me forever. It is becas of arjun my CGPA is better than him becas at every point he helped me n for the fact I can tell u tht he never get frustrated by anything and that is the best thing I like in him. He rarely gets wht he deserves but no1 knows the real cause but I do.Neway a simple guy whom I really admire for his help throughout my study here. I had a real shoulder to cry on , a uninterupped ear to put my words without fear, an eye where I can see lots of dreams to share.
Second person with whom one cud easily notice is dixit but being together is not called friendship. So I never thought tht he is my friend but of course he was very close to me (a true member of our group 9). He is really not a cool guy becas he buys tension with money.Well really a hard working and good at heart never thinks to harm anyone. The only problem with him is he is an egotist (a person always talks abt himself) I never found myself comfortable in uttering my real words to him. He never given me opportunity to say wht I feel but always used to say his story which I really liked. I'm a human being n even I have heart where I do feel something so I too need someone to listen me but for me he was never a good listener.Anyway he is a great guy , helping nature and famous among girls and most important thing is he is very humorous and friendly.
Patke a real friend of mine. Whenever I dont get anything done, if I dont find anyone to help me .. when I have something to share then this guy always stands before me to listen me a guy whom I respect for his help.I nver wanted to come closer to him becas of some1 who is really very close to him. But though he is very close to me n share most of his secrets with me.I liked his helping nature but to understand him properly one needs to be with for quite sometime.A friend of mine since very first year.A perfect all rounder n let others feel jealous of him... I like him too.Atleast u can tell this person a true friend.
Patti a nver understood close person to me.Since he likes the company of lonelyness so he used to be alone and even I guess he enjoys being alone.He came in close contact with me when we were in 2nd year and since then he had been a close person to me. Well he will never realise wht he meant to me but I know in the sense of study he gave me some good piece of advice.I like his nature of critically analysing the problems and giving comments of how things are going on.Well I wanted to talk to this guy becas there was a self hidden behind it.I wanted to improve my communication skills and this is the right person with whom I can freely say whatever I can .... with little bit taking care of pronunciation n grammar.We are hardly friends and he too knows we are not friends but smt is ther inside both so we again got together after one year gap we stopped talking becas sometimes he is really weird but I guess this is a childhood problem so who cares becas I no him now.A great guy in studying going to get his brain drained in US.
A person whom I met before coming here. A great person but equally egoistic than me.Asheesh has been my friend since the begining and he is really a very helping friend who can harm himself for helping others.Only problem is sometimes he behaves weird that I didnt like and since I m also egoist we now dont talk these days. A person really cool even if he gets less marks he hardly cares good at study and a very very good listener and thats wht I liked in him.He is the one with whom I used to share secrets but not all . He is also very close to me it doesnt matter if we talk or dont talk. But I know wht he meant to me and he might one day realise wht I meant to him.A true friend if u r his friend otherwise just a stranger. A caring and helping person now a days lost in gaming.
Thats all I have here at IIIT though there are few others too but they are not so close but yup they r also good to me, But they r not someone whom I meant to them a lot or they meant to me a lot.
Its long only naaa.
chalo bye Vinod
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Someone I like....
I like not only to be loved, but also to be told that I am loved. I am not sure that you are of the same mind. But the realm of silence is large enough beyond the grave. This is the world of light and speech, and I shall take leave to tell you that you are very dear " --George Eliot This is somethin meant for ppl in my life who kno what they mean to me i often forget to let them kno this..someplace else though i shall.....
DONT CONFUSE AFTER READING THIS .......... THESE ARE NOT MY WORDS Well I liked it so much.
Now the real things come here not going away from the topic.I wont say that I am the exception of the rules made by the nature tht before meeting a right person one come across wrong ones. This is also the case with me but I wont say they were wrong but infact they were right on their part.I still like them though they havent done good to me.Let bygones be bygones ...... these were the things of past and somewhere down my memory lane these words got voices and even echo my ear sometimes but really nightmare too have end. Since begining I never realised to be with anybody n I feel I can still live alone without talking to even a single person but that wont be going to help me. This happened with me becas I learnt how to talk with myself and I dont need anyone to talk with even if I am alone.
I had passion of doing something when I came here but due to some unavoidable situations I got trapped and was betrayed from my real goal.Opps I am again going away from the real topic. During my last semester only I found someone who earned respect from me. I started liking her most even though I have not much idea but its true ........... I wud call my dream to be sweet when she appears once in that. Her name is undoubtable starts from unlucky letter for me. But still name cant bring destiny with it so I hardly care abt the starting letter. A girl who is more intelligent than me more beautiful than almost all classmates ........ most sensible most respecting and above all most humorous (this quality I like most) became my friend and I couldnt even sensed when I started liking her. Nobody knows u better than urself and so do I. I have no desire or wish for her but one thing is sure if I ever be successful in life anywhere the main reason and driving force would be her inspiration.
I cant even imagined in my dream to be with her but I have a wish to be atleast coming somewhere near to her so that I can stand in front of her and say my unspoken words that are hidden deep inside my heart. I promise I wud never cry even after her negative response becas it is me who have created this unnamed relationships tht is more than friendship so I have no right to repent on something goes happen wrong if any. The only thing I wish to have is HER PRICELESS TRUST. I would count myself to be lucky if I ever get her that trust n would be friends forever. I hvae one more thing to say I like my chat friends more than my friends over her and even trust more to them than my friends over here becas I know atleast they listen to me and thats wht matter for me.Today someone made me off cuz I couldnt win her trust in all these two weeeks and that made me turned down. May be someday she will realise wht she lost.......
Sometimes I miss you so much that I sleep for dreaming to get you back here.............................................................si.
Bye
Vinod
DONT CONFUSE AFTER READING THIS .......... THESE ARE NOT MY WORDS Well I liked it so much.
Now the real things come here not going away from the topic.I wont say that I am the exception of the rules made by the nature tht before meeting a right person one come across wrong ones. This is also the case with me but I wont say they were wrong but infact they were right on their part.I still like them though they havent done good to me.Let bygones be bygones ...... these were the things of past and somewhere down my memory lane these words got voices and even echo my ear sometimes but really nightmare too have end. Since begining I never realised to be with anybody n I feel I can still live alone without talking to even a single person but that wont be going to help me. This happened with me becas I learnt how to talk with myself and I dont need anyone to talk with even if I am alone.
I had passion of doing something when I came here but due to some unavoidable situations I got trapped and was betrayed from my real goal.Opps I am again going away from the real topic. During my last semester only I found someone who earned respect from me. I started liking her most even though I have not much idea but its true ........... I wud call my dream to be sweet when she appears once in that. Her name is undoubtable starts from unlucky letter for me. But still name cant bring destiny with it so I hardly care abt the starting letter. A girl who is more intelligent than me more beautiful than almost all classmates ........ most sensible most respecting and above all most humorous (this quality I like most) became my friend and I couldnt even sensed when I started liking her. Nobody knows u better than urself and so do I. I have no desire or wish for her but one thing is sure if I ever be successful in life anywhere the main reason and driving force would be her inspiration.
I cant even imagined in my dream to be with her but I have a wish to be atleast coming somewhere near to her so that I can stand in front of her and say my unspoken words that are hidden deep inside my heart. I promise I wud never cry even after her negative response becas it is me who have created this unnamed relationships tht is more than friendship so I have no right to repent on something goes happen wrong if any. The only thing I wish to have is HER PRICELESS TRUST. I would count myself to be lucky if I ever get her that trust n would be friends forever. I hvae one more thing to say I like my chat friends more than my friends over her and even trust more to them than my friends over here becas I know atleast they listen to me and thats wht matter for me.Today someone made me off cuz I couldnt win her trust in all these two weeeks and that made me turned down. May be someday she will realise wht she lost.......
Sometimes I miss you so much that I sleep for dreaming to get you back here.............................................................si.
Bye
Vinod
A poem got in email .
This is dedicated to someone I like most now.
If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you
And share with you its beauty
On the days you're feeling blue.
If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own;
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone.
If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea,
But all these things I'm finding
Are impossible for me.
I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair,
But let me be what I know best,
A friend who's always there.
Bye Vinod
If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you
And share with you its beauty
On the days you're feeling blue.
If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own;
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone.
If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea,
But all these things I'm finding
Are impossible for me.
I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair,
But let me be what I know best,
A friend who's always there.
Bye Vinod
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Few words for some who deserve....
Today I read this blog of someone I dont even know but I really got inspired after reading it.So many poems I found there the link is .
I had many things to say before I leave this institute I wont comment on the institute whether it was a hell or heaven for me.But ofcourse it was mixture of both like Earth.If I go into the long past of four years I could hardly see the things what it is now but I realised there is only one thing that never change and that is always constant.Hey I mean "CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT IN LIFE" and beautifully I could see the true happening of this quote here itself in my batch.Though I know I dont stand anywhere or I dont have any right to comment on anyone or I dont feel that I am the right person to decide how they are but still these are only my feelings and I dont take any resposibility if it doesnt agree with others and I have really no hard feelings for anyone here.
Lets talk abt the other sect of my classmates .... yes I mean girls.I dont think if it is my fortune or my curse that I happen to talk with almost all the girls.Surely it was not boon for me as I lost many things just cuz of this only.Anyway that is secondary thing and I'm not going to diverge u from the real topic today.Well my thinking goes around wht I see and what I feel and whatever I have analysed so far during my stay here at IIIT.It is better for me to write in my blog about the person whom I know than to go in every ones blog and write it there.It is my personnel thought abt them so let it be here only.Now here it goes........
The girl whom I never liked during the first year ......... and reason was great I was influenced by someone and never cared to see the true picture behind it.This is the girl who has changed a lot since the first to this eight sem.I still remember her talk with Mr Kaul sir and she said she has not done well in the first semester but she will really going to get better grade next sem.Infact she topped in the second sem that is no other than Ranu , the person whom I hated for no real cause and for that I even told her sorry in the third sem. After that I hardly remember any moment when I even talked to her cuz I'm really scared of intelligent girls.Well she has changed a lot and this was the change for some good reason and good purpose and now she is really a cool and hardworking person for whom I dont have any grievances with her.She made it to Oracle and then Microsoft that itself says she is a great person with brain.All the best to her.
Second in the list comes is Deepika ..... her sweet voice can make anyone friends with her.I remember how I started talking to her it began with a fight over a wallpaper because she has been my pc - mate for one year.Well after that small fight we became friends (not exactly friends but somewhat better than classmates).Well she was one whom I like for her help during my hard times.She was almost there whenever I asked any help and she helped me a lot though it was small for her but for me it was a great help. Altogether I would say that she is a nice person at heart and really a hardworking too.Well I have not much to say abt her as everybody would be agree with me abt her that she is a gr8 person. SHe made into Oracle and so I'm also scared of her not :) (kidding).All the best to you too.For me she violated the law "change is the only constant" because she didnt change for me.
Lahari is infact not next but I dont differentiate betwen friends so I dont know abt whom to write first and whom to write last.So here order doesnt really matter. I can even bet that whatever I say abt lahari will be applicable to everyone becas all the people like her for her soft voice and helping nature.She is a great dancer and u can sometimes find her naughty if u r little close to her and having a good sense of humour. Well I started talking to her when I was frustrated with someone and really needed a shoulder to cry or infact not to cry but someone to listen me and really I found her too worth for it.She is a good listener and also a good learner.She helped me a lot too at every point of time.Hey I dont think I will ever be writing something like "I helped someone" :( so pathetic for me.Well she is a wonderful person and really a caring friend who can beat the heat of success by her hard.Got into Verizon so me again scared with her.
Kartika ,whom I spent most of my time around her(dont think with her but I mean she was always around me).First she was in group 4, she was my pc-mate for more than anyone that is for whole 2 years, she was my project partener in SE and what else can a person expect more. A very cool person n first thing I noticed her is hard working I guess I will have to use this word (hard working) for almost every girl in our batch.Well though she was my group mate or pc-mate I was never interested in talking with her not becas I dint like her it was becas I was scared of her as she is also an intelligent girl.And as usual becas of my funny attitude , We had our first talk after a small fight over system issue and we had some bitter feelings (I dont know abt her but I certainly had).But time is the greatest healer and everything vanished and due to my stupid behaviour once I made her cry and she went home. For that I never forgiven myself and even I said sorry.Well though she wasnt my friend but atleast she was someone I can dare to talk and ask becas atleast I knew her more than many ppl. She is a bit unlucky in placement got in TCS but I am sure she would make it to the biggies.All the best to u too.
A girl whom u can find everywhere everytime.Most of her time she spent in labs and outside her room.A very friendly person and even a great helper even to her enemy.I had some rough moment with her too but in the end everything was fine.She has been unlucky everytime what she deserves she never got it.She atleast deserves something more that what she have right now.Well there is nothing more to write abt her as she is omnipresent and a really caring person but weak at heart cry a lot without any appropriate reason:) I guess she will surely get wht she deserve and one of the most friendly girl pf our batch she talks with everyone and really a daring with no fear.All the best to u for future.
Manjusha I hardly know her but whatever I know I can tell that she is like other girls of our batch a hard working and good at everything.Yeah I am a shameless creature (I would say :)) becas I even took her help too whenever I need it and she undoubtable helped me without crosss questioning.Good at studies and good at brain too.I had very few moments when I spoke to her and everytime she responded nicely.We really like her the way she speaks. A right person at wrong place I would say cuz she got into Verizon that is not for her standard. Anyway life must have something esle kept for her too.ALl the best for ur future.
Roll number 95 , the girl whom I have seen from the first exam to last exam continuosly in front of me.And when marks comes she was always ahead of me.I hardly remember any moment when I got better marks than her.Initially I used to think abt her as an arrogant person when I never spoke to her.But once I talked to her for a while I could know .............. it is me who has wrong notion abt her she is really nice and would talk nicely if u approach. I cant forget her help during some of the exams especially in OS and thanks to her for giving me A- in POPL.As I can say that though she is also not my friend but I can tell abt her with dare that she is definitely going to go far in her life.Oracle is not a better place for her as she is going to US.All the best for your journey.
A highly arrogant and indesent person .......... Oh god this is her first impression over me but I realised I was wrong too.Along with Ranu I hated her too and even said los of bad words during those freaky time under the influence of someone and that was far from reality. Though she was also in group 4 ... I never talked to her personally or it could be in otherway round too. But to know a person this isnt a basic rule to talk to her but it is the reflection of her behavior that put a mark on ur thoughts. She is really a cool and never bothered girl I mean to say she never cared if ppl are saying bad or good but she did what she wanted. I dont know abt any helping nature becas I never went to her for anything but I am sure she is helping too. The same rule applied to her ........ a right person at wrong place.She deserves more than what she has this time. Well all the best too.
These are some of the words I really wanted to say that I couldnt even say during all these years of stay becas these words are really for writing not for saying.I know some of my friends here that I'll be writing abt them in my next post.For the time being ......... I have only these words........ IN THE END YOU WILL REMEMBER NOT THE WORDS OF YOUR ENEMY BUT THE SILENCE OF YOUR FRIENDS.
VInod
I had many things to say before I leave this institute I wont comment on the institute whether it was a hell or heaven for me.But ofcourse it was mixture of both like Earth.If I go into the long past of four years I could hardly see the things what it is now but I realised there is only one thing that never change and that is always constant.Hey I mean "CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT IN LIFE" and beautifully I could see the true happening of this quote here itself in my batch.Though I know I dont stand anywhere or I dont have any right to comment on anyone or I dont feel that I am the right person to decide how they are but still these are only my feelings and I dont take any resposibility if it doesnt agree with others and I have really no hard feelings for anyone here.
Lets talk abt the other sect of my classmates .... yes I mean girls.I dont think if it is my fortune or my curse that I happen to talk with almost all the girls.Surely it was not boon for me as I lost many things just cuz of this only.Anyway that is secondary thing and I'm not going to diverge u from the real topic today.Well my thinking goes around wht I see and what I feel and whatever I have analysed so far during my stay here at IIIT.It is better for me to write in my blog about the person whom I know than to go in every ones blog and write it there.It is my personnel thought abt them so let it be here only.Now here it goes........
The girl whom I never liked during the first year ......... and reason was great I was influenced by someone and never cared to see the true picture behind it.This is the girl who has changed a lot since the first to this eight sem.I still remember her talk with Mr Kaul sir and she said she has not done well in the first semester but she will really going to get better grade next sem.Infact she topped in the second sem that is no other than Ranu , the person whom I hated for no real cause and for that I even told her sorry in the third sem. After that I hardly remember any moment when I even talked to her cuz I'm really scared of intelligent girls.Well she has changed a lot and this was the change for some good reason and good purpose and now she is really a cool and hardworking person for whom I dont have any grievances with her.She made it to Oracle and then Microsoft that itself says she is a great person with brain.All the best to her.
Second in the list comes is Deepika ..... her sweet voice can make anyone friends with her.I remember how I started talking to her it began with a fight over a wallpaper because she has been my pc - mate for one year.Well after that small fight we became friends (not exactly friends but somewhat better than classmates).Well she was one whom I like for her help during my hard times.She was almost there whenever I asked any help and she helped me a lot though it was small for her but for me it was a great help. Altogether I would say that she is a nice person at heart and really a hardworking too.Well I have not much to say abt her as everybody would be agree with me abt her that she is a gr8 person. SHe made into Oracle and so I'm also scared of her not :) (kidding).All the best to you too.For me she violated the law "change is the only constant" because she didnt change for me.
Lahari is infact not next but I dont differentiate betwen friends so I dont know abt whom to write first and whom to write last.So here order doesnt really matter. I can even bet that whatever I say abt lahari will be applicable to everyone becas all the people like her for her soft voice and helping nature.She is a great dancer and u can sometimes find her naughty if u r little close to her and having a good sense of humour. Well I started talking to her when I was frustrated with someone and really needed a shoulder to cry or infact not to cry but someone to listen me and really I found her too worth for it.She is a good listener and also a good learner.She helped me a lot too at every point of time.Hey I dont think I will ever be writing something like "I helped someone" :( so pathetic for me.Well she is a wonderful person and really a caring friend who can beat the heat of success by her hard.Got into Verizon so me again scared with her.
Kartika ,whom I spent most of my time around her(dont think with her but I mean she was always around me).First she was in group 4, she was my pc-mate for more than anyone that is for whole 2 years, she was my project partener in SE and what else can a person expect more. A very cool person n first thing I noticed her is hard working I guess I will have to use this word (hard working) for almost every girl in our batch.Well though she was my group mate or pc-mate I was never interested in talking with her not becas I dint like her it was becas I was scared of her as she is also an intelligent girl.And as usual becas of my funny attitude , We had our first talk after a small fight over system issue and we had some bitter feelings (I dont know abt her but I certainly had).But time is the greatest healer and everything vanished and due to my stupid behaviour once I made her cry and she went home. For that I never forgiven myself and even I said sorry.Well though she wasnt my friend but atleast she was someone I can dare to talk and ask becas atleast I knew her more than many ppl. She is a bit unlucky in placement got in TCS but I am sure she would make it to the biggies.All the best to u too.
A girl whom u can find everywhere everytime.Most of her time she spent in labs and outside her room.A very friendly person and even a great helper even to her enemy.I had some rough moment with her too but in the end everything was fine.She has been unlucky everytime what she deserves she never got it.She atleast deserves something more that what she have right now.Well there is nothing more to write abt her as she is omnipresent and a really caring person but weak at heart cry a lot without any appropriate reason:) I guess she will surely get wht she deserve and one of the most friendly girl pf our batch she talks with everyone and really a daring with no fear.All the best to u for future.
Manjusha I hardly know her but whatever I know I can tell that she is like other girls of our batch a hard working and good at everything.Yeah I am a shameless creature (I would say :)) becas I even took her help too whenever I need it and she undoubtable helped me without crosss questioning.Good at studies and good at brain too.I had very few moments when I spoke to her and everytime she responded nicely.We really like her the way she speaks. A right person at wrong place I would say cuz she got into Verizon that is not for her standard. Anyway life must have something esle kept for her too.ALl the best for ur future.
Roll number 95 , the girl whom I have seen from the first exam to last exam continuosly in front of me.And when marks comes she was always ahead of me.I hardly remember any moment when I got better marks than her.Initially I used to think abt her as an arrogant person when I never spoke to her.But once I talked to her for a while I could know .............. it is me who has wrong notion abt her she is really nice and would talk nicely if u approach. I cant forget her help during some of the exams especially in OS and thanks to her for giving me A- in POPL.As I can say that though she is also not my friend but I can tell abt her with dare that she is definitely going to go far in her life.Oracle is not a better place for her as she is going to US.All the best for your journey.
A highly arrogant and indesent person .......... Oh god this is her first impression over me but I realised I was wrong too.Along with Ranu I hated her too and even said los of bad words during those freaky time under the influence of someone and that was far from reality. Though she was also in group 4 ... I never talked to her personally or it could be in otherway round too. But to know a person this isnt a basic rule to talk to her but it is the reflection of her behavior that put a mark on ur thoughts. She is really a cool and never bothered girl I mean to say she never cared if ppl are saying bad or good but she did what she wanted. I dont know abt any helping nature becas I never went to her for anything but I am sure she is helping too. The same rule applied to her ........ a right person at wrong place.She deserves more than what she has this time. Well all the best too.
These are some of the words I really wanted to say that I couldnt even say during all these years of stay becas these words are really for writing not for saying.I know some of my friends here that I'll be writing abt them in my next post.For the time being ......... I have only these words........ IN THE END YOU WILL REMEMBER NOT THE WORDS OF YOUR ENEMY BUT THE SILENCE OF YOUR FRIENDS.
VInod
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Last days at IIIT
If you spend some time at some place you will either end up with either sweet or sour memories. But staying for four years at the same place is not a piece of cake (:d) it has bitter taste too. I have a mixer of experienced during these years of stay. It doesnt add to my crown if I say I have left many friends infact not friends but few aquaintances whom I happen to know for sometime. It always happen those who are with you , are not going to be with u for life.But leaving in the middle for stupid reasons doesnt show the indication of friendship at all. I would better call this relation as "pact or in better sense a conditional friendship".
I hardly believe in friendship now after some instances.Most of the people here just lie for showing their importance in front of friends. I know I never had deficiency of good friends ever in my life and I really dont want to break those old relations for new ones.I have some sweet memories here at IIIT that would always remain with me for life and even if I dont want to remember it ... it will never let me leave like a shadow. Some person were really great but some werent of like that.Let me start with myself .......... Me a real psycho , arrogant , idiot , over emotional and blah blah.... these are the unspoken words from someone for me.Ok I do disagree with these ....... I never give any right to others to decide who I am and even I dont keep any right to decide how others are. Only insecure people go for judging themselves. Though my own words echo into my ears "In the end we will remember not the words but the silence of friends" but at this point I myself disagree. I never forget the words said by my enemies and these words are always with me even if I want to forget it I wont be.
Thats fine ... to defiant those cracky words I have some words for caring too and words of friendship that I really hate now.Well these are the mixed feelings once I start counting it .... it will never go on end.Lets give it the break at this point for the time being. I will be continuing this soon . going for lunch now.
Bye Vindd
I hardly believe in friendship now after some instances.Most of the people here just lie for showing their importance in front of friends. I know I never had deficiency of good friends ever in my life and I really dont want to break those old relations for new ones.I have some sweet memories here at IIIT that would always remain with me for life and even if I dont want to remember it ... it will never let me leave like a shadow. Some person were really great but some werent of like that.Let me start with myself .......... Me a real psycho , arrogant , idiot , over emotional and blah blah.... these are the unspoken words from someone for me.Ok I do disagree with these ....... I never give any right to others to decide who I am and even I dont keep any right to decide how others are. Only insecure people go for judging themselves. Though my own words echo into my ears "In the end we will remember not the words but the silence of friends" but at this point I myself disagree. I never forget the words said by my enemies and these words are always with me even if I want to forget it I wont be.
Thats fine ... to defiant those cracky words I have some words for caring too and words of friendship that I really hate now.Well these are the mixed feelings once I start counting it .... it will never go on end.Lets give it the break at this point for the time being. I will be continuing this soon . going for lunch now.
Bye Vindd
Saturday, April 16, 2005
will I ever win over this tension ?
This free thing "tension" you can get everywhere even if u dont want and this is the same situation going on with me.Neither do I think of and nor I want to have this free funded licence for whom you dont have to claim or sign and disclaimer issues. This unwanted idiot can go with you in the dark as well as in the day without even caring with whom are u walking.I tried hard to get it stop somewhere but didnt get the hand to catch it.These last days at IIIT didnt bring any happiness to my heart instead giving me tension everyday.sometimes I think this and something that and this is the fight for my imagination and wishes.I wish something else and but fate has soemthing else for me in his hand.
I am out of money and whenever such situation comes it adds more to my existing tension and so I am getting more and more tensed without any concrete reason for that.Well the single reason for that could be shortage of money from my pocket and this intensified my tension.Nothing is more important now for me except saying somehting to someone as it is getting worse than before.I wish I could find her today and could have a word with her.Now match is on its way and now I am gonna watch it so take care and bye for now.
I am out of money and whenever such situation comes it adds more to my existing tension and so I am getting more and more tensed without any concrete reason for that.Well the single reason for that could be shortage of money from my pocket and this intensified my tension.Nothing is more important now for me except saying somehting to someone as it is getting worse than before.I wish I could find her today and could have a word with her.Now match is on its way and now I am gonna watch it so take care and bye for now.
Monday, April 11, 2005
Do I really miss anyone here?
I have a big fight going on between heart and mind whether I'll be missing someone here at IIIT or not.But everytime no one other than heart wins and it says yes.But I know there is some space still left for very few in my big heart that still few remains there and would most probably be sitting there for life.Though there is diffenrt efiniton of my missing of someone else in IIIT but sure it doesnt differ a lot from others.I wont be missing my close friends at all because I know I can get better than them in life because this is not the end of life and it will be going on and on and I wont be staying and wating for soemone for all th etime so I am sure I would get better person that what I got here but definitely I wil be missing them for a while for sure.
The thing that I would be missing for a bit is group nine members though very few were clsoe to me but still I would be missing them for a while but thats ok this is life and we cant expect everyone to stay with u for life and so this ist he way life and ppl goes on and on.There are very few who were not very clsoe to me but still I will be missing them most and they deserve to be missed by many not only me becasue they are really good in the othere sense.Here I would ilke to quore some names too but oh sorry no names allowed in blog for me.
Definitely I would cherise some moments with someone I spent talking and laughing but definitely not someone whom eveyone knows but someone only few know abt ....I never realised what MISSING someone means but today it seems I have realised something new and its killing me from within.I have met many ppl in life and I would be mititing with more and more in future too but I am sure some are the ppl are not coming back to me in my lfie again . To them I am surely gonna miss them but not in the sense what other feels and defined a missing.what more to say at this moments lets see if I can come up with something else and some other feeelings might be coming out at different time so I am still not sure if this feeling is mine or not or just a small moment thta oudl vanish in short span of time??let the fate and time decide if this is tre of just a fake one.
I miss man** for sure.dont know abt others someday i might feel but not at this moment.
Bye
VInod
The thing that I would be missing for a bit is group nine members though very few were clsoe to me but still I would be missing them for a while but thats ok this is life and we cant expect everyone to stay with u for life and so this ist he way life and ppl goes on and on.There are very few who were not very clsoe to me but still I will be missing them most and they deserve to be missed by many not only me becasue they are really good in the othere sense.Here I would ilke to quore some names too but oh sorry no names allowed in blog for me.
Definitely I would cherise some moments with someone I spent talking and laughing but definitely not someone whom eveyone knows but someone only few know abt ....I never realised what MISSING someone means but today it seems I have realised something new and its killing me from within.I have met many ppl in life and I would be mititing with more and more in future too but I am sure some are the ppl are not coming back to me in my lfie again . To them I am surely gonna miss them but not in the sense what other feels and defined a missing.what more to say at this moments lets see if I can come up with something else and some other feeelings might be coming out at different time so I am still not sure if this feeling is mine or not or just a small moment thta oudl vanish in short span of time??let the fate and time decide if this is tre of just a fake one.
I miss man** for sure.dont know abt others someday i might feel but not at this moment.
Bye
VInod
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