Confusion of My Stupid Mind

Some stupid confusions are there inside my mind since the time I m born. Infact I am a guy with lots of confusion. At the time of my birth I would bet on it that GOD must have been in confusion to create a new creature.These confusions have formed a long list now and it is slowly getting the priority over my dreams.I m not able to decide anything this time.
Ok lets start with my basic confusion.Why I am here for?? Greaat ... before starting writing anything I changed the title 7 times. It goes like this ..... A silent cry, Wounded soul, A thorn in my wounded heart , A confession of my dirty mind,Just a confusion, I lost someone ......finally again it is confusion of my stupid mind. This is a trivial confusion wheneve I try to write I change my title many times.
Yeah its was quite clear a while back tht I was gonna write abt some stupid girl whom I lost because of a stupid reason.Well it's useless to mention her cuz I dont think she will ever understand it. But she still doesnt know tht this idiot can wait forever.Neway this looks like as if I m frustrate but no really I m not.I am quite in my sense and had really a good discussion with someone very good advisor.So definitely I m not gonna talk abt that stupid girl here.
I have quite a few reason to come back n fill this blog with some new petals of words.
First title was A silent cry that means really today I cried for a while and even I dont know why was it for .......but I did. Wounded soul ...... about this the same reason I am still hurt my dear.U dont have any right to intrude into my emotions.
Well 4th one is really interesting The confession of a Dirty mind.... Dirty mind bole to ....sometimes I do things crazy.So I was abt to confess publically without thinking but I didnt.
Anyway there is no point for me to go into those stupid details.Lets cometo the main idea tht I started it.I have a confusion that I am still not able to remove. Hey dont think tht I have fallen in love with any stupids I never had confusion in this regards :) :) ...... yeah that is other thing tht I alawys have a confusion that if a girl has fallen in love with me or not??... hehhehhehhee ... This is the real confusion. Well srry guys n excuse me gals....confusion is abt my life.
Wht I want from my stupid LIFE..... tht is the confusion.I dont know wht do I like most..... a girl , a nice carreer, millions of money, a mercedes benz, or my satisfaction of wht I am ....I think I am good for nothing.This life has become hell for me.Going movie even in weekdays doesnt bring any happiness for me permanently. I am in research team here but didnt like much now moved to development side to learn new thing but still I m not satisfied.I dont have a girl friend even there I am out of luck :P :P so unluckky naaa.
Arey yaar my real confusion is what to do next????? Should I prepare for biggies like M$,Google,Amazon,Yahoo..... or should I go for cracking for name sake that I am least motivated... or should I go for writing my GRE n applying for MS (I know I wont get it) ... or wasting my time with my stupids online. Confusion creats confusion and thts for sure.I am not even sure wht would be happening with me in 4-5 months from now.I m definitely gonna mad.
Chalo bahut confusion ho gaya.thoda time pass to kar hi leta hun. Dekho yaar duniya mein jo ho raha hai hone do. Koi tumhara nahi hai tum kisi ke nahi ho.Fir tum rote kyon ho? Tumne kya laaya tha jo tumne kho diya .....
No more senti because senti makes a man stupid and idiot like I was for sometime.Idiots can make ur life hell and I had already an experience.Koi baat nahi tension nahi lena kaa mast rahne kaa life mein senti nahi hone kaa.
Bye Vinod