Life is a crap

Soooooooo crap u cant imagine wht is there in its hand . A moment back u feel u have got everything the very next moment u will realise that there was nothing at all................ so life is a crap. Mine routine got a shift n now I'm virtually working in night shift.I used to sleep during my office hour n do my work only during night.well I guess my PM is not at all worried abt this but he is just ok if I'm working my part. Today itself I missed two calls n couldnt call back her cuz I m out of money n really cant afford to make any calls and tht also std ones.
My day now starts at 1 PM almost everyday.After getting myself refreshed the clock short hand could creep to make 30 degree by that time.By the time I reached to office only just two hours are left and I could hardly find anything to do at that time beside chatting or brwosing the internet.I just pass my day doing these things and not actually putting my efforts in right direction.Only night with the mooon I have something mine... I can't just afford to miss the great scenery of meeting of lovely moon with lots of twinkling stars. So verbally I would admit my day start only in night .Wild dreams and unfulfilled desires always knock my brain to come out of the shells.I hardly manage to give them a right plateform to execute their programs because most of the time my CPU is busy with craps.Even I cant give my dream user an illusion of virtual memory cuz memory utilisation has already passed its limit.
Some c fundae instantly blow out of my so called brainny head.Dont find time to get into it with lots of thinking.arey yaaar wht the hell I'm writing it.
Yaaar sometimes I think ....... why these words are still soem scambled and jumbled words that I m still unable to give them a right sentence to speak its meaning.Its me thats why.I'm not a stupid I guess but during my hard times of bankrupt I'm still wasting money like helllll god knows wht will happen to me if I couldnt get the salary for this month tooo.Now worried at my part but thinking of others whom I've to return.well I started trying to improve my so called HINGLISH lets see who are with me to give me better support.hopefully some of my strangers r really helpful n caring they do help me but as I mentioned earlier I'm not a good decision taker so didnt make up my mind. Neway in a sentence if somebody asks me what is life for me .......... then I would promptly say LIFE IS A CRAP FOR ME.
DD how r u doing ??I think u got some ideas right??:P hunt still on:O .Archue wht was the message u sent didnt understand yaaar.Giving u missed call @3 means I'm still ther.My dear unknown inspiration I know u r busy with ur exams but still u could steal some moments to get back to ur unknown friends neway all the best to u. Welllll I can understand u DS sometimes it does happen with me when someone calls me I'm busy n tired.S ...u shouldnt think much abt nething....arey yaaar if ther is no yahooo u can have gooooogle n msn ther:) dont worry.4 some1 I care ........ its really becoming hard to forget u as I try more to forget more I remember u.I can replace ur s** with many but unfortunately I cant replace u with ne1.Do better next time and all the best.
chalo I'm not finding the words to write here...........
gud bbuy
vinod