Nothing to lose now

when you have nothing to lose ......... then this world is yours.
It was really a great day for me yesterday even calender was sure of it as it was always reminding me something special gonna to be happen.well as usual I got up at 5:00 am and was sure of not facing the sun while it is over my head.So I decided to get up at that very instant and finished my work for the rest of the day.Not everyone here on the earth is so lucky to realise everything in life.But definitely I am one of those lucky persons who atleast have tasted many kinds of flovours of the life.
Everything happens here in the world for a reason and so did happen the same with me.My nightmares were so harsh sometimes I were not able to sleep in the night and It was so horrible in the sunny light that I never dared to face it.But after every dark night there comes a bright day , It too came in my life too.Stealing moments for sharing my secrets is my great interest and better u can say it as my hobby.It seems to me as if it was just yesterday I have lived my hell life and tomorrow is going to be a great day.I spent my whole life in looking for "miss perfect" I even found her alasssss she was also looking for "Mister perfect".thats a joke.....not really remotely connected to what I am going to write.
I like Roti rather than pizza.I never tasted pizza but what if you r alone and u dont have any option? Of course you will go for pizza.So did I. Throughout my stay I have been liking a stale bread who was worth throwing I still liked it and even banged my head with wall trying to turn it into a door.But now I hvae got my life and I really believe its really not a stale roti which is infected with fungus and its not worthy for even testing but its a pizzzza whom I never thought of tasting but I even enjoyed it and really would like to try more and more.
I know I was never wrong and I got the punishment of that I have never done it.There is no word like friendship, love, help or anything .These golden words look great only in books , they are worth nothing in real life.Thats why now she is not even my friend till yet.I would definitely call myself lucky that I have found an aquaintance whom I started liking more than everyone.But I hve no expectation and there is no condition at all involved in this. Conditional friends are no good.Oh sorry in this world no one does good to you no one is your friend ....... the only person who doesnt harm you is goood for you.Ok thats enough of everything.The point is that I have found my new source of inspirating and this time I am going to make her my strengh not my weakness.
Dixiee words echo into my ear as "We say .... we FALL in love and RISE in friendship".So I have decided I will never fall in love but surely I will rise in friendship now onward.Destiny is never a chance it is choice by nature.It is we who decide and choose from the options.

Tomorrow going for a picnic ........ would feel great even if I know I have to face the biggest nightmare coming true in front of me.
"When you know whats there in my heart it will be too late by then"
BYe
VInod