today I would like to mention that LIFE isn't fair at all. I guess no body has noticed it. Well in case you haven't noticed, almost NOTHING is fair. Fairness is an idea that we hell people here on earth have created.I think we probably created the concept of fairness to torture ourselves.
Look how unfair life is ...............
1. Some men are taller, and some are shorter. Women tend to prefer taller men. How unfair.
2. A very small portion of the women that are alive are as perfect and beautiful as the women in movies and other magazines, and therefore it's impossible for every man to have one (or many) women that are this beautiful. How unfair.
3. Many men go their entire lives without ever having love. How unfair.
4. Some men have love affairs with hundreds or even thousands
of women in their lives. How unfair.
5. Some men know the secrets of creating that magical emotion called ATTRACTION inside of women, even though they aren't rich, handsome, tall, etc. and wind up having their choice of beautiful young women. How unfair.
The point I'm trying to make is that LIFE ISN'T FAIR at all!
It happens with most of the men specially when they are with women. Sometimes a woman will respond positively to you, then the next day she'll act strange.
Sometimes a specific technique will work for you, and sometimes it won't.
Sometimes you'll feel great and confident inside, and sometimes you won't.
Now, most people don't like the idea that life (and love) aren't fair. They get upset when things don't go their way, place too much meaning on things that happen to them and responses they get from women, and generally act like life should be different.
Of course, this is CRAZY.
The more that I realized this fact... that life just isn't fair... the more that I realized another PROFOUND truth:
If life were "fair", then you wouldn't be able to do anything to change your personal success. You'd get what everyone else was getting.
This unfairness generates an immense power and energy in you to get something you want. You can improve so much that you are actually at an ADVANTAGE when it comes to women and love.
I personally think that most people aren't WILLING to get up off of their couch, put the remote down,and actually invest the time and effort required to become GREAT at something.
My life is also not fair with me.Someone can call me, can ask me , can see me, can meet me, can talk to me , whenever she wants and when I need her she isnt there??HOW UNFAIR.... I am also a human being and sometimes I do need to talk to her , discuss something with her, but that someone isnt there for me. Is it what she always calls friendship??? I definitely dont agree with it.
Bye VInod (ofcourse I read above things N I liked it)
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Thursday, January 27, 2005
A special day for me.....
Of course, it is a special day for me in the calender as its my b'day today.This is the first time I have been thinking of getting bumps in an official manner.Last three years I didnt get the bumps the way every b'day boy gets , in that case I was a bit lucky. Last night I couldnt sleep well ..... pretending to spend time by any means.Every seconds was like nano second for me and it appears as if someone is knocking my door with his NCC shoes.
A watched an old hindi movie and tried to sleep for taking some rest. Every stars including moon was so silently peeping through my windows, they gave me indication of a twister coming and this silence was none other than the silence that comes before tooooooofaaan. Somehow I manage to take nap for a while but at around 11:45 I got up for a while cuz I was not feeling comfortable though I tried hard to have some sleep afterwards but all went in vein.I started preparing for getting bumps I was wishing no one to come for giving me wish as I can get it next day in the morning too. Armoured with more inners than usual ..... to protect my one and only one a*****.
The dooms day come when at around 12:10 dix started pouring fire with his shoes onto my doors that compelled me to commit a sin at that moment. A small little lamb was going to be killed at butcher's shop and that shop was not far from my little room just three floor down. More butchers and footballers have come than I was wishing for. With all the customary rituals and norms , lamb were given lots of sweets in the forms of bumps. God must be seeing these butchers really dont have heart while they behead an innocent lamb. All of them tried their lucks with my arse except few and some were the giving breakthrough of their new game. The only way you can escape from these is to pretend of getting hurt hard. So I used my last weapon to protect myself and I succeeded in convincing others I already got enough and really enough is enough now.
Well nothing was so great while you cut cakes knowing that you are not going to have it even if you want it. Celebrating b'day here is really not a piece of cake you will have to be strong enough to face the disaster before you really enjoy your cakes...Night went without much fuss cuz I watched mithun da.. ELAAN after that and slept nicely though my body was aching from all the sides.
This is the first time in 22 years (ofcourse since I got my sense), I didnt take bath in the morning before I take my breakfast .... and one most important thing happened is that I didnt even go to temple this time and I will nver forgive myself for it :(.... Got my head shaved becas of this frustration to feel that I have done a sin. Well my brother sent me sms and it was really a nice experience for me and I hope it is a memorable day. Last but not least, some person wished me for my b'day whom I never thought they would remember me and also most of my chat friends wished me and it really count a lot for me atleast there are soemone who still remember me.....
"Main chahta tha ki ye yaad ban jaye
Koi mere liye bhi khusiyon ke geet gaye
Bhir mein bhi meri nazrein tumhe hi dhoondhti thi
kyonki tum yaad aaye kyonki tum yaad aaye"
BYe VInod
A watched an old hindi movie and tried to sleep for taking some rest. Every stars including moon was so silently peeping through my windows, they gave me indication of a twister coming and this silence was none other than the silence that comes before tooooooofaaan. Somehow I manage to take nap for a while but at around 11:45 I got up for a while cuz I was not feeling comfortable though I tried hard to have some sleep afterwards but all went in vein.I started preparing for getting bumps I was wishing no one to come for giving me wish as I can get it next day in the morning too. Armoured with more inners than usual ..... to protect my one and only one a*****.
The dooms day come when at around 12:10 dix started pouring fire with his shoes onto my doors that compelled me to commit a sin at that moment. A small little lamb was going to be killed at butcher's shop and that shop was not far from my little room just three floor down. More butchers and footballers have come than I was wishing for. With all the customary rituals and norms , lamb were given lots of sweets in the forms of bumps. God must be seeing these butchers really dont have heart while they behead an innocent lamb. All of them tried their lucks with my arse except few and some were the giving breakthrough of their new game. The only way you can escape from these is to pretend of getting hurt hard. So I used my last weapon to protect myself and I succeeded in convincing others I already got enough and really enough is enough now.
Well nothing was so great while you cut cakes knowing that you are not going to have it even if you want it. Celebrating b'day here is really not a piece of cake you will have to be strong enough to face the disaster before you really enjoy your cakes...Night went without much fuss cuz I watched mithun da.. ELAAN after that and slept nicely though my body was aching from all the sides.
This is the first time in 22 years (ofcourse since I got my sense), I didnt take bath in the morning before I take my breakfast .... and one most important thing happened is that I didnt even go to temple this time and I will nver forgive myself for it :(.... Got my head shaved becas of this frustration to feel that I have done a sin. Well my brother sent me sms and it was really a nice experience for me and I hope it is a memorable day. Last but not least, some person wished me for my b'day whom I never thought they would remember me and also most of my chat friends wished me and it really count a lot for me atleast there are soemone who still remember me.....
"Main chahta tha ki ye yaad ban jaye
Koi mere liye bhi khusiyon ke geet gaye
Bhir mein bhi meri nazrein tumhe hi dhoondhti thi
kyonki tum yaad aaye kyonki tum yaad aaye"
BYe VInod
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Memorable Picnic ..........
Well on the eve of picnic , everything was going downhill with me.I decided to be calm, cool and silent. But night has brought a nightmare for me as I didnt sleep at all whole night.At around 4:40 Chandu knocked the doors as if he is going to turn my door into a open window. Tiwary , Bedi , Avinash, Arjun all were still sleeping by the time I got up and then out of blue , silent night was crowed with the noises..... means all of us were running and getting ready for picnic..I never thought in my dream about this moment to come in my life but it came roaring like a lion and despite knowing the consequences I decided to face it boldly.Thanks to someone ... L** who gave me strength to face this known twister.
It was still dark outside my room and sun was also not ready to get up from his black woolen bed because her lover moon wanted more time to enjoy the night. Stars were on the way to show the path for us atleast in our wing to take bath and do get refreshed quickly. Of course pandit was still with his unresolved mistery of finding a way to decide whether to join us or not. Thank god .... ultimately his changed his mind and got ready too.It was now 5:30 and unfortunately I stood second in my wing to get down for the bus.Pappu, Nimmi and Kaka jee got the prize for being the first three to reach the bus and many others were waiting too and I joined them.At around 6:15 all of us were looking like monkeys going in a zoo car crying hauling singing and roaring of course not like lion but bellowing like donkeys (joking). I was very happy to get a seat near jovial person of our batch (dixieee) and he was lucky to get a permanent SIKAAR like me.
We stopped in indiranagar to take some of our arranged goods but there my stars shown me indication of someting fishy. I sensed it and I was impelled to change my seat that wasnt the end of my nightmare (cuz sun was still in bed with his dark blue blanket) but this was the beginning.I was with vishesh though everybody seems to be sleepy but some donkeys do make sound while others are sleeping and thats what happened. Those who were lucky got the entertainment bag of m*** and unlucky were pretending to sleep though they actually thinking of grapes which were sour to them. Entertainment, Fun, Masti, songs with all together what else one can think of doing real BC. Breakfast were served in the bus itself and after we had our breakfast we played games infact I would give credit to piyush who reinvented the wheel of making a game of entertainment. We were the trend setter for this game and then most of the others too started the same game. Many played trivial games like antakshari.
Forgot to mention about a surprise item.........a surprise prize for the person who is having the oldest coin. we cant think of anyone else than a oldest railway station beggar who must have got the olderst coin but anand came out as winner as he had a coin of 1956 god knows from which beggars he stolen that coin :D.
we enjoyed the trip fully because everyone was feeling comfortable except some unlucky guy like me who is always complaining.It was great to see everyone happy at the same time with a good reason we often dont get such situation.It was very nice experience of going to picnic with all the batchmates........................
will be continued next episode........
Bye VInod
(God is the witness that I was never wrong)
It was still dark outside my room and sun was also not ready to get up from his black woolen bed because her lover moon wanted more time to enjoy the night. Stars were on the way to show the path for us atleast in our wing to take bath and do get refreshed quickly. Of course pandit was still with his unresolved mistery of finding a way to decide whether to join us or not. Thank god .... ultimately his changed his mind and got ready too.It was now 5:30 and unfortunately I stood second in my wing to get down for the bus.Pappu, Nimmi and Kaka jee got the prize for being the first three to reach the bus and many others were waiting too and I joined them.At around 6:15 all of us were looking like monkeys going in a zoo car crying hauling singing and roaring of course not like lion but bellowing like donkeys (joking). I was very happy to get a seat near jovial person of our batch (dixieee) and he was lucky to get a permanent SIKAAR like me.
We stopped in indiranagar to take some of our arranged goods but there my stars shown me indication of someting fishy. I sensed it and I was impelled to change my seat that wasnt the end of my nightmare (cuz sun was still in bed with his dark blue blanket) but this was the beginning.I was with vishesh though everybody seems to be sleepy but some donkeys do make sound while others are sleeping and thats what happened. Those who were lucky got the entertainment bag of m*** and unlucky were pretending to sleep though they actually thinking of grapes which were sour to them. Entertainment, Fun, Masti, songs with all together what else one can think of doing real BC. Breakfast were served in the bus itself and after we had our breakfast we played games infact I would give credit to piyush who reinvented the wheel of making a game of entertainment. We were the trend setter for this game and then most of the others too started the same game. Many played trivial games like antakshari.
Forgot to mention about a surprise item.........a surprise prize for the person who is having the oldest coin. we cant think of anyone else than a oldest railway station beggar who must have got the olderst coin but anand came out as winner as he had a coin of 1956 god knows from which beggars he stolen that coin :D.
we enjoyed the trip fully because everyone was feeling comfortable except some unlucky guy like me who is always complaining.It was great to see everyone happy at the same time with a good reason we often dont get such situation.It was very nice experience of going to picnic with all the batchmates........................
will be continued next episode........
Bye VInod
(God is the witness that I was never wrong)
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Nothing to lose now
when you have nothing to lose ......... then this world is yours.
It was really a great day for me yesterday even calender was sure of it as it was always reminding me something special gonna to be happen.well as usual I got up at 5:00 am and was sure of not facing the sun while it is over my head.So I decided to get up at that very instant and finished my work for the rest of the day.Not everyone here on the earth is so lucky to realise everything in life.But definitely I am one of those lucky persons who atleast have tasted many kinds of flovours of the life.
Everything happens here in the world for a reason and so did happen the same with me.My nightmares were so harsh sometimes I were not able to sleep in the night and It was so horrible in the sunny light that I never dared to face it.But after every dark night there comes a bright day , It too came in my life too.Stealing moments for sharing my secrets is my great interest and better u can say it as my hobby.It seems to me as if it was just yesterday I have lived my hell life and tomorrow is going to be a great day.I spent my whole life in looking for "miss perfect" I even found her alasssss she was also looking for "Mister perfect".thats a joke.....not really remotely connected to what I am going to write.
I like Roti rather than pizza.I never tasted pizza but what if you r alone and u dont have any option? Of course you will go for pizza.So did I. Throughout my stay I have been liking a stale bread who was worth throwing I still liked it and even banged my head with wall trying to turn it into a door.But now I hvae got my life and I really believe its really not a stale roti which is infected with fungus and its not worthy for even testing but its a pizzzza whom I never thought of tasting but I even enjoyed it and really would like to try more and more.
I know I was never wrong and I got the punishment of that I have never done it.There is no word like friendship, love, help or anything .These golden words look great only in books , they are worth nothing in real life.Thats why now she is not even my friend till yet.I would definitely call myself lucky that I have found an aquaintance whom I started liking more than everyone.But I hve no expectation and there is no condition at all involved in this. Conditional friends are no good.Oh sorry in this world no one does good to you no one is your friend ....... the only person who doesnt harm you is goood for you.Ok thats enough of everything.The point is that I have found my new source of inspirating and this time I am going to make her my strengh not my weakness.
Dixiee words echo into my ear as "We say .... we FALL in love and RISE in friendship".So I have decided I will never fall in love but surely I will rise in friendship now onward.Destiny is never a chance it is choice by nature.It is we who decide and choose from the options.
Tomorrow going for a picnic ........ would feel great even if I know I have to face the biggest nightmare coming true in front of me.
"When you know whats there in my heart it will be too late by then"
BYe
VInod
It was really a great day for me yesterday even calender was sure of it as it was always reminding me something special gonna to be happen.well as usual I got up at 5:00 am and was sure of not facing the sun while it is over my head.So I decided to get up at that very instant and finished my work for the rest of the day.Not everyone here on the earth is so lucky to realise everything in life.But definitely I am one of those lucky persons who atleast have tasted many kinds of flovours of the life.
Everything happens here in the world for a reason and so did happen the same with me.My nightmares were so harsh sometimes I were not able to sleep in the night and It was so horrible in the sunny light that I never dared to face it.But after every dark night there comes a bright day , It too came in my life too.Stealing moments for sharing my secrets is my great interest and better u can say it as my hobby.It seems to me as if it was just yesterday I have lived my hell life and tomorrow is going to be a great day.I spent my whole life in looking for "miss perfect" I even found her alasssss she was also looking for "Mister perfect".thats a joke.....not really remotely connected to what I am going to write.
I like Roti rather than pizza.I never tasted pizza but what if you r alone and u dont have any option? Of course you will go for pizza.So did I. Throughout my stay I have been liking a stale bread who was worth throwing I still liked it and even banged my head with wall trying to turn it into a door.But now I hvae got my life and I really believe its really not a stale roti which is infected with fungus and its not worthy for even testing but its a pizzzza whom I never thought of tasting but I even enjoyed it and really would like to try more and more.
I know I was never wrong and I got the punishment of that I have never done it.There is no word like friendship, love, help or anything .These golden words look great only in books , they are worth nothing in real life.Thats why now she is not even my friend till yet.I would definitely call myself lucky that I have found an aquaintance whom I started liking more than everyone.But I hve no expectation and there is no condition at all involved in this. Conditional friends are no good.Oh sorry in this world no one does good to you no one is your friend ....... the only person who doesnt harm you is goood for you.Ok thats enough of everything.The point is that I have found my new source of inspirating and this time I am going to make her my strengh not my weakness.
Dixiee words echo into my ear as "We say .... we FALL in love and RISE in friendship".So I have decided I will never fall in love but surely I will rise in friendship now onward.Destiny is never a chance it is choice by nature.It is we who decide and choose from the options.
Tomorrow going for a picnic ........ would feel great even if I know I have to face the biggest nightmare coming true in front of me.
"When you know whats there in my heart it will be too late by then"
BYe
VInod
Thursday, January 20, 2005
I do believe its not yet over
What fate has conspired for you no body knows and no one even know what is going to happen just a moment later. May be all these sayings are right but I beg to differ from them. For me it is not true because we really know what is going to happen atleast with 99 % possibility but only in 1 % case we get setbacks. Atleast I know what I am going to type for next few moments :) what say?? But surely fate has an important role to play in your life. Thats what happened with me .... even my bad luck has brought a great sense of happiness by giving me a call for living my life once again.
Is it my bad luck or good luck? dont even know until I came to an end.whatever be the case I wil face the world now with the firm ideas and with the high morals.Well ..... I never know this would be the time and the moment which came would brought me here at such a platform where I have to decide whether to move back or to go on my way ..... the way where there is no destination only the journey.
How this VInod can be so harsh with himself.There is only one person in the whole world whom I ever listened or I will be listening to ever in life ... that is none other than me..I have always listened to my heart and infact it was sometimes wrong but I do belive it.As for me "I always trust my heart but it is not always right".Of course mind is also not right all the time.I have a strong feelings for myself as being a loser and this negative thinking would one day led me into trouble.anyways those were the bygones era.Something I have done I shouldnt have done it.I am really feeling bad of what i hvae done wrong.There was no ones else fault even but I did it as I sensed something fishy in it.
Will I ever be out of this trap of mk or not?Or will it always be going forever with me?Sorry ***** and ***** , I never meant those words.Those were harsh I know it but it was for my precautions and one day u will realise too that I was never wrong. Your ambitious nature is the only trouble for me it shows you can leave everything for your ambition and thats where I am selfish.Really its a great experience now for me that I have found you but I have no expectation from anyone.Even if we are not together talking .... I wont get hurt atleast.........
"I like U not b'coz U are good but U are good b'coz I like U"
"When there is something to share ..... WRITING is never an option"
Is it my bad luck or good luck? dont even know until I came to an end.whatever be the case I wil face the world now with the firm ideas and with the high morals.Well ..... I never know this would be the time and the moment which came would brought me here at such a platform where I have to decide whether to move back or to go on my way ..... the way where there is no destination only the journey.
How this VInod can be so harsh with himself.There is only one person in the whole world whom I ever listened or I will be listening to ever in life ... that is none other than me..I have always listened to my heart and infact it was sometimes wrong but I do belive it.As for me "I always trust my heart but it is not always right".Of course mind is also not right all the time.I have a strong feelings for myself as being a loser and this negative thinking would one day led me into trouble.anyways those were the bygones era.Something I have done I shouldnt have done it.I am really feeling bad of what i hvae done wrong.There was no ones else fault even but I did it as I sensed something fishy in it.
Will I ever be out of this trap of mk or not?Or will it always be going forever with me?Sorry ***** and ***** , I never meant those words.Those were harsh I know it but it was for my precautions and one day u will realise too that I was never wrong. Your ambitious nature is the only trouble for me it shows you can leave everything for your ambition and thats where I am selfish.Really its a great experience now for me that I have found you but I have no expectation from anyone.Even if we are not together talking .... I wont get hurt atleast.........
"I like U not b'coz U are good but U are good b'coz I like U"
"When there is something to share ..... WRITING is never an option"
Monday, January 17, 2005
Am I Insecure?
"Insecurity" comes when there is conflict between your thinking and happenning. It happened to me and there came something in my mind that led to me to think that Am I insecure?? Might be I am right but I myself differ from my thought.Something comes from heart something else says my mind it is all because of what happened in the past. Every moment I feel insecurity just because of my dark past. Well that is not of much importance as I want to take lessons from my past so I would try my best to go slowly and would be over conscious in this regard.
I think all the people are not of one kind. I beleive her that she wont be joining that kind of groups atleast for the sake of god. Are all girl are same? Of course NOT, as my mother is also a mother and I think she is definitely different from others. So far I have seen talked to her it seems to me she is just fine to be a friend but I wont call her a friend until I brood more about this topic. After all what I know about her? Nothing but these days why I am getting so kind of feelings of a loser? ONe day I will show this world that I am not a loser I am not a loser. My past that is written in a firmly fixed rock that cant be moved from it place always tug my heart strings not to go far in this matter. Well everything will be fine once she understands me too but I hope it will take some more time to know each other.Its her exams starting from today and I think she is not gonna come and that is very fine for me as if she comes I feel insecure.
I never wanted to talk to her but everything it happens with me the person whom I never thought to be with , she/he turns to be my close person. I am still scared of coming closer to her to know about her as she doesnt understand what I say.She doesnt know whats going behind the scene. Once she understands she wil be a good for me and for her too.I wish her all the best of her exams.I need wish for myself too. This is not the first time I am talking with someone but she is really different and her sense of humour is great like someone I dont want to mention it. I like her humor as she is not a typical indian girl but she knows what is right and wrong for her. one day I will tell her ........ "WHY I AM STILL NOT HER FRIEND YET".
I have many works today so I am not going today to her sister as I will tell her to work alone and we will do together later.
I think all the people are not of one kind. I beleive her that she wont be joining that kind of groups atleast for the sake of god. Are all girl are same? Of course NOT, as my mother is also a mother and I think she is definitely different from others. So far I have seen talked to her it seems to me she is just fine to be a friend but I wont call her a friend until I brood more about this topic. After all what I know about her? Nothing but these days why I am getting so kind of feelings of a loser? ONe day I will show this world that I am not a loser I am not a loser. My past that is written in a firmly fixed rock that cant be moved from it place always tug my heart strings not to go far in this matter. Well everything will be fine once she understands me too but I hope it will take some more time to know each other.Its her exams starting from today and I think she is not gonna come and that is very fine for me as if she comes I feel insecure.
I never wanted to talk to her but everything it happens with me the person whom I never thought to be with , she/he turns to be my close person. I am still scared of coming closer to her to know about her as she doesnt understand what I say.She doesnt know whats going behind the scene. Once she understands she wil be a good for me and for her too.I wish her all the best of her exams.I need wish for myself too. This is not the first time I am talking with someone but she is really different and her sense of humour is great like someone I dont want to mention it. I like her humor as she is not a typical indian girl but she knows what is right and wrong for her. one day I will tell her ........ "WHY I AM STILL NOT HER FRIEND YET".
I have many works today so I am not going today to her sister as I will tell her to work alone and we will do together later.
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
I wish .........
I WISH I COULD...!!
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I sit on this cold lovely night
There is one bright star in the sky
I wish I could find happiness
But all that I can do is cry
even though you're so far away
still have so much to say
There is picture of you in my mind
but lonelyness in my heart
It's been long time since you went away
left without a word, nothing to say
I often toss and turn in bed
can't get you out of my head
counting every moment that goes by
and the tears that i cry,
I wish I could listen the sound
the falling tears could make
But all I can find is that
these tears make no sound
The consequences were so tough
though you treated me very rough
This time I promise I wont run
But atleast see what you've done
I had my own reason not to hate you
'Coz you dont feel the way I do!.
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I sit on this cold lovely night
There is one bright star in the sky
I wish I could find happiness
But all that I can do is cry
even though you're so far away
still have so much to say
There is picture of you in my mind
but lonelyness in my heart
It's been long time since you went away
left without a word, nothing to say
I often toss and turn in bed
can't get you out of my head
counting every moment that goes by
and the tears that i cry,
I wish I could listen the sound
the falling tears could make
But all I can find is that
these tears make no sound
The consequences were so tough
though you treated me very rough
This time I promise I wont run
But atleast see what you've done
I had my own reason not to hate you
'Coz you dont feel the way I do!.
Confused what to say :O
VG Scribbles
There was never a problem for me to judge if something right or wrong happened to me but there comes a moment in life when your mind doesnt agree with your heart and thats what happened with me today.Who on earth made these seven days of the week like seven wonders of the world.I was thinking how do they compare the wonders and at what basis they really make diffrence between them? Well this could be an immediate question once you are in a state of mind where you are not able to interprete the situation.
This wednesday showered me with the petals of red roses that really matters for me.well leaving all these craps let me say my words.As usual it would have been an ordinary day for me that would reduce my life by one day but actully I felt it incresed my happiness manyfold. Once again I felt to live for myself and realised that still there is something in my corner of heart who still belives in me and compels me to live my life again. Talking with someone could be of great impact in ones life and this happened with me. Someday I might stand and say to this world how I feel.
As I can feel free to say that I have nothing to lose anymore so whatever comes in my way I will only gain because after you reach to certain level of heights of losing , it wont hurt you a bit. I achieved that greatness of height. I am now never scared of losing someting I never claimed mine thats what makes u strong.Gist is I really learnt many things during all these days and really like to learn more and more about life. This is what I got in my pocket of knowledge and what I lost is T-shirts (google :() but I am happy that she was worth talking and I have no grievance for losing a goooooooogle tag.
I am myself confused.......:O
Bye vinod
There was never a problem for me to judge if something right or wrong happened to me but there comes a moment in life when your mind doesnt agree with your heart and thats what happened with me today.Who on earth made these seven days of the week like seven wonders of the world.I was thinking how do they compare the wonders and at what basis they really make diffrence between them? Well this could be an immediate question once you are in a state of mind where you are not able to interprete the situation.
This wednesday showered me with the petals of red roses that really matters for me.well leaving all these craps let me say my words.As usual it would have been an ordinary day for me that would reduce my life by one day but actully I felt it incresed my happiness manyfold. Once again I felt to live for myself and realised that still there is something in my corner of heart who still belives in me and compels me to live my life again. Talking with someone could be of great impact in ones life and this happened with me. Someday I might stand and say to this world how I feel.
As I can feel free to say that I have nothing to lose anymore so whatever comes in my way I will only gain because after you reach to certain level of heights of losing , it wont hurt you a bit. I achieved that greatness of height. I am now never scared of losing someting I never claimed mine thats what makes u strong.Gist is I really learnt many things during all these days and really like to learn more and more about life. This is what I got in my pocket of knowledge and what I lost is T-shirts (google :() but I am happy that she was worth talking and I have no grievance for losing a goooooooogle tag.
I am myself confused.......:O
Bye vinod
Sunday, January 09, 2005
A great day for me :)
I didnt expect this ordinary calender to turn into a beautiful and colourful messenger who would brought me a new ray of this silky sunny morning to say someone is waiting for me. In the early morning of this auspicious morning it was my good luck to see my face in the mirror who doesnt let me get away from it. I feel something fishy when everything in a day is going uphill for me for throughout the day and it really scares me thinking of something getting wrong.
There comes a moment I guess in almost everyones life that you will feel this world is with u and everything is yours.I feel the same during all these days.I guess my dark ages are over for me and new buds are blooming giving me indication of arrival of spring in my life again. You can definitely call it my crazziness or whatever but it is true that I started thinking about my life now after wasting a huge quanta of time that is not going to get back in my life again. But why to dig the grave nothing would come out of it.... but a smell that wont even let me sustain for a while would be sneaking out of it and would make my life like a hell again.
This time I am in no position to say anything but soon I will be in that position to judge what I am doing is right or wrong?well that is alright for me.It is a great experience for me and when I had similar experiences I has no blog to write but still chunks of torn pages are with me who say its words and dont even need a mouth to speak out.Somebody has rightly said "BE WHO YOU ARE BUT NEVER SAY WHAT YOU FEEL BECAUSE THOSE WHO MATTER DO MIND AND THOSE WHO MIND DO MATTER". Well this is all crap but what I wanted to share with myself (myself is me and only me) is that today was really a great day for me as I have got a nice experience with someone and really I got a source of inspiration for my this year :).How far I would be successful I dont know but its reallly great to go as far as I can see the horizon.
I believe its time for me to forget something and its time to realise what is wrong and what is right ............ these clouds have no permanent stay and never fall in love with such a stray cloud who will go, as soon as it sees a shining sun...my dear everything that shines is not GOLD.
"PYAR TO EK SURUWAT HAI (love is just a begining)"
IT IS A JOURNEY NOT A DESTINATION as i feel.The place from where I am seeing it ........ it is just a start.
Bye vinod
There comes a moment I guess in almost everyones life that you will feel this world is with u and everything is yours.I feel the same during all these days.I guess my dark ages are over for me and new buds are blooming giving me indication of arrival of spring in my life again. You can definitely call it my crazziness or whatever but it is true that I started thinking about my life now after wasting a huge quanta of time that is not going to get back in my life again. But why to dig the grave nothing would come out of it.... but a smell that wont even let me sustain for a while would be sneaking out of it and would make my life like a hell again.
This time I am in no position to say anything but soon I will be in that position to judge what I am doing is right or wrong?well that is alright for me.It is a great experience for me and when I had similar experiences I has no blog to write but still chunks of torn pages are with me who say its words and dont even need a mouth to speak out.Somebody has rightly said "BE WHO YOU ARE BUT NEVER SAY WHAT YOU FEEL BECAUSE THOSE WHO MATTER DO MIND AND THOSE WHO MIND DO MATTER". Well this is all crap but what I wanted to share with myself (myself is me and only me) is that today was really a great day for me as I have got a nice experience with someone and really I got a source of inspiration for my this year :).How far I would be successful I dont know but its reallly great to go as far as I can see the horizon.
I believe its time for me to forget something and its time to realise what is wrong and what is right ............ these clouds have no permanent stay and never fall in love with such a stray cloud who will go, as soon as it sees a shining sun...my dear everything that shines is not GOLD.
"PYAR TO EK SURUWAT HAI (love is just a begining)"
IT IS A JOURNEY NOT A DESTINATION as i feel.The place from where I am seeing it ........ it is just a start.
Bye vinod
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Happy New Year
It was not just an ordinary day in the calender for me but it was really a great day for me.Someone I found today , the one whom I made my source of inspiration. She is really a nice person and a great friend to have.I think that this earth would take years to get such a lucky person like me if I ever be her friend forever.
In the very first hour of this NEW year, I have taken my resolution to never lose heart. Always there is a scope for improvement and one should never stop trying because those who try never lose. I found a great friend and god is the witness that I have nothing wrong in my heart about her but I have a feelings for her. It is not that I havent seen such a beautiful person or I cant get more beautiful person like her, but there is something special about this person. I know this could be another setback for me but still I am ready to face the world as it is. I will take the risk again and will try my best to do something special as I have got my source of inspiration.
I wish all of you who is reading my blog A VERY VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR and I hope this message should reach to that someone for whom I have written it.
Life is sometimes really a ocean where there is always a hope of getting something new if we are ready to get down in the water.
Bye
Vinod
In the very first hour of this NEW year, I have taken my resolution to never lose heart. Always there is a scope for improvement and one should never stop trying because those who try never lose. I found a great friend and god is the witness that I have nothing wrong in my heart about her but I have a feelings for her. It is not that I havent seen such a beautiful person or I cant get more beautiful person like her, but there is something special about this person. I know this could be another setback for me but still I am ready to face the world as it is. I will take the risk again and will try my best to do something special as I have got my source of inspiration.
I wish all of you who is reading my blog A VERY VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR and I hope this message should reach to that someone for whom I have written it.
Life is sometimes really a ocean where there is always a hope of getting something new if we are ready to get down in the water.
Bye
Vinod
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