Loosers dont have choices

Being a part of this nasty world I realised many things and even experienced some important instances too.At one point of time you feel this whole world is yours and in the very next moment you feel everything is lost.I wont say that I have realised this now but it happened with me many times and these last few days my life is full of all these experiences only.I lost something I never had...... what an irony.How can someone lose that he/she doesnt had? Yes he/she can .Since last few days whole world was mine and now I lost everyone.I have no choices and I have no options.
This life ends when you dont have choices and this is the only time when u feel that u r just a begger in this world and beggars can't be choosers.One thing more in this world eveyone wants to grind his own axe and I sometimes feel a kind of execption to this rule. Taking some decisions is not a big deal but sticking to that is the biggest problem. where was I wrong I never found it and where was my decisions wrong was also not known. Someone came in my life as a shining sun in the morning and in the evening bright morning turned into a dark night. I wont ever think of anyone now and I have decided I wont do anything wrong in my life even if the situation comes I will fight with it.I will do something before I could say to this world that I am right and I was never wrong.
How come someone leaves you just because they got their work done?Are people so selfish?Yes most of them are like them.Anyway I have learnt a new lesson and I hope I should take care in future. Some idiots are still bothering me and embarrassing me these days but thats secondary issue I will fight to this world again and I will only utter something when I am done otherwise I will start talking to myself and I think I wont be having time for others to listen or to talk.A person can talk to one person at a time and now I am trying to talk to myself.How far I will be successful I dont know but I am sure one day I will win and I will get what I deserve and if I am lucky enough then I will get what I like and I like ..... and I wish I could get that in my life.Really at this point of time I am not missing you ......... ok all the best and happy holi
VInod