Few words for some who deserve....

Today I read this blog of someone I dont even know but I really got inspired after reading it.So many poems I found there the link is .
I had many things to say before I leave this institute I wont comment on the institute whether it was a hell or heaven for me.But ofcourse it was mixture of both like Earth.If I go into the long past of four years I could hardly see the things what it is now but I realised there is only one thing that never change and that is always constant.Hey I mean "CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT IN LIFE" and beautifully I could see the true happening of this quote here itself in my batch.Though I know I dont stand anywhere or I dont have any right to comment on anyone or I dont feel that I am the right person to decide how they are but still these are only my feelings and I dont take any resposibility if it doesnt agree with others and I have really no hard feelings for anyone here.
Lets talk abt the other sect of my classmates .... yes I mean girls.I dont think if it is my fortune or my curse that I happen to talk with almost all the girls.Surely it was not boon for me as I lost many things just cuz of this only.Anyway that is secondary thing and I'm not going to diverge u from the real topic today.Well my thinking goes around wht I see and what I feel and whatever I have analysed so far during my stay here at IIIT.It is better for me to write in my blog about the person whom I know than to go in every ones blog and write it there.It is my personnel thought abt them so let it be here only.Now here it goes........

The girl whom I never liked during the first year ......... and reason was great I was influenced by someone and never cared to see the true picture behind it.This is the girl who has changed a lot since the first to this eight sem.I still remember her talk with Mr Kaul sir and she said she has not done well in the first semester but she will really going to get better grade next sem.Infact she topped in the second sem that is no other than Ranu , the person whom I hated for no real cause and for that I even told her sorry in the third sem. After that I hardly remember any moment when I even talked to her cuz I'm really scared of intelligent girls.Well she has changed a lot and this was the change for some good reason and good purpose and now she is really a cool and hardworking person for whom I dont have any grievances with her.She made it to Oracle and then Microsoft that itself says she is a great person with brain.All the best to her.

Second in the list comes is Deepika ..... her sweet voice can make anyone friends with her.I remember how I started talking to her it began with a fight over a wallpaper because she has been my pc - mate for one year.Well after that small fight we became friends (not exactly friends but somewhat better than classmates).Well she was one whom I like for her help during my hard times.She was almost there whenever I asked any help and she helped me a lot though it was small for her but for me it was a great help. Altogether I would say that she is a nice person at heart and really a hardworking too.Well I have not much to say abt her as everybody would be agree with me abt her that she is a gr8 person. SHe made into Oracle and so I'm also scared of her not :) (kidding).All the best to you too.For me she violated the law "change is the only constant" because she didnt change for me.

Lahari is infact not next but I dont differentiate betwen friends so I dont know abt whom to write first and whom to write last.So here order doesnt really matter. I can even bet that whatever I say abt lahari will be applicable to everyone becas all the people like her for her soft voice and helping nature.She is a great dancer and u can sometimes find her naughty if u r little close to her and having a good sense of humour. Well I started talking to her when I was frustrated with someone and really needed a shoulder to cry or infact not to cry but someone to listen me and really I found her too worth for it.She is a good listener and also a good learner.She helped me a lot too at every point of time.Hey I dont think I will ever be writing something like "I helped someone" :( so pathetic for me.Well she is a wonderful person and really a caring friend who can beat the heat of success by her hard.Got into Verizon so me again scared with her.

Kartika ,whom I spent most of my time around her(dont think with her but I mean she was always around me).First she was in group 4, she was my pc-mate for more than anyone that is for whole 2 years, she was my project partener in SE and what else can a person expect more. A very cool person n first thing I noticed her is hard working I guess I will have to use this word (hard working) for almost every girl in our batch.Well though she was my group mate or pc-mate I was never interested in talking with her not becas I dint like her it was becas I was scared of her as she is also an intelligent girl.And as usual becas of my funny attitude , We had our first talk after a small fight over system issue and we had some bitter feelings (I dont know abt her but I certainly had).But time is the greatest healer and everything vanished and due to my stupid behaviour once I made her cry and she went home. For that I never forgiven myself and even I said sorry.Well though she wasnt my friend but atleast she was someone I can dare to talk and ask becas atleast I knew her more than many ppl. She is a bit unlucky in placement got in TCS but I am sure she would make it to the biggies.All the best to u too.

A girl whom u can find everywhere everytime.Most of her time she spent in labs and outside her room.A very friendly person and even a great helper even to her enemy.I had some rough moment with her too but in the end everything was fine.She has been unlucky everytime what she deserves she never got it.She atleast deserves something more that what she have right now.Well there is nothing more to write abt her as she is omnipresent and a really caring person but weak at heart cry a lot without any appropriate reason:) I guess she will surely get wht she deserve and one of the most friendly girl pf our batch she talks with everyone and really a daring with no fear.All the best to u for future.

Manjusha I hardly know her but whatever I know I can tell that she is like other girls of our batch a hard working and good at everything.Yeah I am a shameless creature (I would say :)) becas I even took her help too whenever I need it and she undoubtable helped me without crosss questioning.Good at studies and good at brain too.I had very few moments when I spoke to her and everytime she responded nicely.We really like her the way she speaks. A right person at wrong place I would say cuz she got into Verizon that is not for her standard. Anyway life must have something esle kept for her too.ALl the best for ur future.

Roll number 95 , the girl whom I have seen from the first exam to last exam continuosly in front of me.And when marks comes she was always ahead of me.I hardly remember any moment when I got better marks than her.Initially I used to think abt her as an arrogant person when I never spoke to her.But once I talked to her for a while I could know .............. it is me who has wrong notion abt her she is really nice and would talk nicely if u approach. I cant forget her help during some of the exams especially in OS and thanks to her for giving me A- in POPL.As I can say that though she is also not my friend but I can tell abt her with dare that she is definitely going to go far in her life.Oracle is not a better place for her as she is going to US.All the best for your journey.

A highly arrogant and indesent person .......... Oh god this is her first impression over me but I realised I was wrong too.Along with Ranu I hated her too and even said los of bad words during those freaky time under the influence of someone and that was far from reality. Though she was also in group 4 ... I never talked to her personally or it could be in otherway round too. But to know a person this isnt a basic rule to talk to her but it is the reflection of her behavior that put a mark on ur thoughts. She is really a cool and never bothered girl I mean to say she never cared if ppl are saying bad or good but she did what she wanted. I dont know abt any helping nature becas I never went to her for anything but I am sure she is helping too. The same rule applied to her ........ a right person at wrong place.She deserves more than what she has this time. Well all the best too.


These are some of the words I really wanted to say that I couldnt even say during all these years of stay becas these words are really for writing not for saying.I know some of my friends here that I'll be writing abt them in my next post.For the time being ......... I have only these words........ IN THE END YOU WILL REMEMBER NOT THE WORDS OF YOUR ENEMY BUT THE SILENCE OF YOUR FRIENDS.
VInod

Last days at IIIT

If you spend some time at some place you will either end up with either sweet or sour memories. But staying for four years at the same place is not a piece of cake (:d) it has bitter taste too. I have a mixer of experienced during these years of stay. It doesnt add to my crown if I say I have left many friends infact not friends but few aquaintances whom I happen to know for sometime. It always happen those who are with you , are not going to be with u for life.But leaving in the middle for stupid reasons doesnt show the indication of friendship at all. I would better call this relation as "pact or in better sense a conditional friendship".
I hardly believe in friendship now after some instances.Most of the people here just lie for showing their importance in front of friends. I know I never had deficiency of good friends ever in my life and I really dont want to break those old relations for new ones.I have some sweet memories here at IIIT that would always remain with me for life and even if I dont want to remember it ... it will never let me leave like a shadow. Some person were really great but some werent of like that.Let me start with myself .......... Me a real psycho , arrogant , idiot , over emotional and blah blah.... these are the unspoken words from someone for me.Ok I do disagree with these ....... I never give any right to others to decide who I am and even I dont keep any right to decide how others are. Only insecure people go for judging themselves. Though my own words echo into my ears "In the end we will remember not the words but the silence of friends" but at this point I myself disagree. I never forget the words said by my enemies and these words are always with me even if I want to forget it I wont be.
Thats fine ... to defiant those cracky words I have some words for caring too and words of friendship that I really hate now.Well these are the mixed feelings once I start counting it .... it will never go on end.Lets give it the break at this point for the time being. I will be continuing this soon . going for lunch now.
Bye Vindd

will I ever win over this tension ?

This free thing "tension" you can get everywhere even if u dont want and this is the same situation going on with me.Neither do I think of and nor I want to have this free funded licence for whom you dont have to claim or sign and disclaimer issues. This unwanted idiot can go with you in the dark as well as in the day without even caring with whom are u walking.I tried hard to get it stop somewhere but didnt get the hand to catch it.These last days at IIIT didnt bring any happiness to my heart instead giving me tension everyday.sometimes I think this and something that and this is the fight for my imagination and wishes.I wish something else and but fate has soemthing else for me in his hand.
I am out of money and whenever such situation comes it adds more to my existing tension and so I am getting more and more tensed without any concrete reason for that.Well the single reason for that could be shortage of money from my pocket and this intensified my tension.Nothing is more important now for me except saying somehting to someone as it is getting worse than before.I wish I could find her today and could have a word with her.Now match is on its way and now I am gonna watch it so take care and bye for now.

Do I really miss anyone here?

I have a big fight going on between heart and mind whether I'll be missing someone here at IIIT or not.But everytime no one other than heart wins and it says yes.But I know there is some space still left for very few in my big heart that still few remains there and would most probably be sitting there for life.Though there is diffenrt efiniton of my missing of someone else in IIIT but sure it doesnt differ a lot from others.I wont be missing my close friends at all because I know I can get better than them in life because this is not the end of life and it will be going on and on and I wont be staying and wating for soemone for all th etime so I am sure I would get better person that what I got here but definitely I wil be missing them for a while for sure.
The thing that I would be missing for a bit is group nine members though very few were clsoe to me but still I would be missing them for a while but thats ok this is life and we cant expect everyone to stay with u for life and so this ist he way life and ppl goes on and on.There are very few who were not very clsoe to me but still I will be missing them most and they deserve to be missed by many not only me becasue they are really good in the othere sense.Here I would ilke to quore some names too but oh sorry no names allowed in blog for me.
Definitely I would cherise some moments with someone I spent talking and laughing but definitely not someone whom eveyone knows but someone only few know abt ....I never realised what MISSING someone means but today it seems I have realised something new and its killing me from within.I have met many ppl in life and I would be mititing with more and more in future too but I am sure some are the ppl are not coming back to me in my lfie again . To them I am surely gonna miss them but not in the sense what other feels and defined a missing.what more to say at this moments lets see if I can come up with something else and some other feeelings might be coming out at different time so I am still not sure if this feeling is mine or not or just a small moment thta oudl vanish in short span of time??let the fate and time decide if this is tre of just a fake one.
I miss man** for sure.dont know abt others someday i might feel but not at this moment.
Bye
VInod

Overloaded lifen

It was not even morning when my eye opened its petal to look around some beautiful scene but hmmmm it was not a beautiful at all but infact it was the uglist nightmare I have seen.N I'm sure someone who knows abt my nightmare might have sensed the true person in the dream..Oh it was the same but the scene was new and situation was not taken to be granted as a cool one.Yesterday calender showed me the finger in the sense of horrifying sprit as my exam went totally crap and I wanted to overcome to this skrewed up moment but all went in vain.I dont know why I am always trying to save my ass from work but everytime I try I got my ass struck up in a big trouble.Hell lots of work to be done and I started none.
Well I wont say if that ring tone brought any enough fortune to me in the early morning but I'm sure it was really not so nice to listen that soft killing voice but well could guess it was becas of that I did some good work in the first exam but overconfident put me down with the setting sun and got totally skrewed up in the next exam.
Today this time I am frustrate with myself have no choice no interest totally got sick of getting myself involved in something I am not good at.When the spicy feelings come into my mind I always get sad becas it shows I am a looser a deadly looser who have no choice left.Only this moment itself could be a witnes for my failure and for my frustration and still hoping to encounter such incident again and again.I need to give myself to some space and time to discover myself as I think I am lost completely.Getting bored even in writing my own blog.One important thing "Life is not always the bed of roses sometimes it is thorn and pain that never goes".Well for missing part of course I miss someone very special but that speciality they wont realise ever lol.ok bye
Vinod