Felcity

Whole three days of drama after a stunnind success came to end last night oh sorry last day cuz it was around 3:00 am while the birds were getting back to their nests. This was my second felicity in my four years of stay here at IIIT. The last two I havent even seen which ground it was held. Of course this time I enjoyed a lot and in my opinion It was a great success.
May be it is my personnel feelings as I rarely encountered my nightmare there in the ground so it was a pleasant evening for me to enjoy in the ground. I danced a lot without knowing a single step or abc of dancing (I'm really gonna miss it). Well I couldnt prove myself to be a good organizer as I failed once again with cyber quiz.I was a part of organizing team and really didnt do much.At this point I would be true to myself in telling that I am not satisfied with myself. Well I am quite satisfied with my participation though couldnt really win anything :(. The only thing I missed a lot is man** as I wanted her to be there atleast but she didnt come and that made me go crazy.
I have realised it is just one way traffic and it wont ever go. It is me only who thinks abt her but she never cares abt what I need. This way nothing is gonna happen as i can be sure of this. I really now want to discontinue this one way traffic....... I HATE THIS. how come u cant come for once for someone who cares you so much? This is just unfair. I am trapped now by taking project with her as I am not sure of its completion even in years. It would take me ages to start the project as she doesnt even come for once.It is just rediculous. Well I sound little bit frustrated but it is all because of her only. Anyway leave it.come to felicity 05. It was a great effort towards the excelence.
Last night was one of the best night for me atleast I enjoyed to my fullest. There are hardly such occassions where I feel comfortable and it was one of them. Most of the girls were too dancing though I was not dancing with them but it was looking great to see them all together. Of course I stilll dont see someone's face and even pray anytime I worship not to bring any of them in front of me.It is too embarrassing and disturbing for me. In mohabbatein I remember one dialogue as it left a print in my heart too.It goes like this "maine zindagi mein sirf ek hi ladki se pyar kiya hai .... aur ushi se zindagi bhar karta rahunga".But for me it changed a bit "Zindagi mein maine bahut kam logon se nafrat ki hai...... aur ushe zindagi bhar karta rahunga ". Anyways I didnt want to make to so long I would keep something for next post.....until then.
BYe VInod